Today about k3n's

2006-11-05T17:30:00.000+08:00

Hmm... my weekend was good. spend time ith darling, going out and time really past as fast as i spend my time in HTA. I will be back again fast. To accompany mum... to see dad, so be with dear.

Really, everytime like this de... the feeling which i hate. The feeling of miss and leaving. Hopefully i will be fitter and stronger to deal with the physical training, and with happy moments. take care...

I miss dear... pls dont cry, i know you would. You will be strong yea, study hard and take care of urself. Contact mum also if theres anything. miss you all...

2006-11-05T17:23:00.000+08:00

Going in later... sianz, but i am feeling fine.

Think of taking a nap first, to feel my bed...
i miss mum and dad... i miss darling... i miss home...

2006-11-04T21:41:00.000+08:00

FUCK it! I am boiling and drinking the Liang Cha she made for me. Its bitter, and i am able to drink everything up becoz i am fucking boiling! i requested NOT to put honey, let it bitter.

Cant i play my guitar just awhile more? Why muz they keep pushing me to go bath and drink that tea. I know its the care becoz i juz recovered. SEE la! i dun even have the mood to play my guitar anymore. When i am home dressed properly, juz came back from outside.. i like to play my fender. Dun expect me to bath and wear back my outside clothes again! WHY!? becoz i like to play when i am dressed properly, thats when i feel good. FUCK ! Even when i go jamming, i try to dress proper... i respect my guitar, i trest it with care.... ah what ever la, i no mood liao la...

wanted to make this a good calm loving post, 930q5ysl ]ew t43y65u4en 43523ho FUCK!

2006-10-29T17:59:00.000+08:00

i will be going in very soon... now resting and packing my stuff. Everytime when its sunday evening, i got this feeling... the feeling of losing, the feeling of leaving, the feeling of missing... i really hate it. i hate this feeling... i have to push myself to go back there. Sad, this week passed so fast. i still recall what i did and how i spent my time... so fun, so lovely... its already one month, soon another month will pass... den i will be able to be strong and i have nothing to be afraid of den. i will miss dear... always encouraging me and stay with me... i will work hard for you, i will take care of myself.. u too alright. Hope mum and dad will take care of themselves too.

2006-10-28T03:42:00.000+08:00

Now is Saturday already , 3.35am in the morning. Guess... i am not sleepy? came back at 2Am from movie. now is like er... slacking time? think after this i will go catch some sleep... but dear will be waking up and disturb me le bah =P haha... Very fast, time past... and tmr i will be going back to HTA at night.

Some times i see mum and dad... i really wanna do something for them to show them i love them? haha... but its so mushy, i mean its like.... at this age we dont go tell our parents I Love You this kinda thing? We are not kids anymore... I also dont know how to show it to them, Dad is sick with tooth ache, mum legs are weak... which she havent go see a doctor, but i think she will be fine.

When ever i see darling, she will be so cute... and i love her to bits too.. always wanna cuddle her and kiss her. She has been very nice, very loving and care towards me... thank you baby.

And today is our 1 and Half Year Anniversary! i love you always, and ever... i will miss u alot in there...

2006-10-24T10:17:00.000+08:00

Today is tuesday, pretty fast eh?

Anyway, i am not going to stress myself during this time. I will stay relax and happy to enjoy myself. Lets see... yesterday was fun.Went to orchard after a really long time in HTA. Had a movie "Death Note" i am really into this movie, so thrilled and i felt i am in the story. Yea i love the story line, the characters have its own distinct personality. And the death god shinigami was funny..

Went to eat japanese food after wards, cool~ coz watch japanese show den muz eat jap food mah haha.. Went to HMV and i bought the ALbum i wanted!!! Thanks to darling whu showed me, she found it =) i know she wanted me to leave it there so she could buy for me... but nah, she already bought a GLay album for me liao!!! =D so i bought bah~ anyway it is expensive. hmm.... Do i feel heart pain? well... maybe not bah, coz i paid thru nets LOL. Dad will kill me if he finds out lor... And darling and me took neoprints!!! this time our prints look the cutest! esp me =X sorry no scans for u. its up to u to imagine hahaa~ i juz love her more and more...

Juz now browsed the FlyFF website, i really miss that game so much? showed darling how to play and darling also loved to fly around. Maybe i will try to play a lil bit of it... think i lost touch of the controls haha..

I hope today i dont feel pressured at home, coz both my parents are AT HOME! this is gonna make a movie, "Home Not ALone Ken" -___-

2006-10-15T19:37:00.000+08:00

Going in later. This marks the end of my stressful and straining 3rd week.

There are times of fun and games, we also encourage and suffer together. Every sunday, i will be pushing myself out to go back to HTA. How i wish i can spend more time with my mum and darling. I know everyone miss me.

I will be even tougher and more stout in my next book out. I will work hard and i will definitely come out the next friday. Day by day is pass so fast... soon its book out day, and quickly its book in day.

I just love to spend my day lazing and watching GLay's concert. I love to walk around and look around. Hopefully i will get my 3 days off... thats something to look forward to =)

Darling muz be positive and think differently, she muz know how to take care of herslf ok. Cross road muz see cars, muz eat also. And sleep and rest early... Study hard too. Mummy and Daddy will be happy and take good care of themselves, daddy muz not over eat. Daddy muz drive carefully and mummy muz relax.

Pray to gohonzon, everything will be fine and days pass quickly. I will be able to take the training and as times goes i will be better physically and mentally.

2006-10-07T22:43:00.000+08:00

I felt so bored. Infact i wanna sleep... but its too early to sleep. I wanna blog but the stupid USB device thing prevents me from transfering pics from my phone to my pc. This is crap!

Tmr is sunday and i will be going back the life of training soon. haiz... i still feel weak.

Will be the 3rd week liao, week by week ... soon it will be 6 months and i will pass out soon bah. Hopefully i can pass all my tests.

for the first time i felt so sianz... i wanna play game, i wana go things. But i dun feel like playing any game, just finish one pangya tour. Lost like lost untill damn Lost... dun feel like playing guitar, need to keep and clean. i just feel ....haiz... mood swing bah. maybe i am tired..

Today spend time with darling, i am happy. When its about time for her to go home, i had tears. i can see her's one too. I miss her... and we watch Glay's concert today. Surprise right? haha... cant wait for my next book out. There WILL not BE any COnfinement! or StandBy duty! Dont HAVE~! >.<

2006-10-01T12:56:00.000+08:00

Came back after my first week in Home Team Academy.

Soon i will be getting used to the life there. I think i have grown taller, coz of the stretching exercise each day.

Came back on friday, met my parents, baby. Played my guitar, listen my fav songs, doing what i can do during the weekends. Went to Bugis wif darling to each Mos burger, went round shopping. Its not enough.... still many things i havent done.

Next week, i will be BACK!

2006-09-26T07:38:00.000+08:00

I need to be there later at 10am...

I will miss my baby... It sems that my things are leaft here to collect dust like that..
Its like going away to abroad and wont come back for a long time. but, NAH~
I will definitely be back during the weekends, I will be okay and fine in there.

Take care , i love you always...

2006-09-21T23:18:00.000+08:00

Going to the force on these comin tuesday.

Will i be bald? or short haired?

i love my new haicut now.. i look so cute, so nerd, so innocent hahahaha

I want to play more! i wanna jammin... play game, go out, get an esp!
I will have the money when i work. Then i could go out and enjoy! To drink, to shop, and to saaavvveeeee.... i really need to set a target of how much to save. i neeed an accountant to help me in financial planing haha.

Guess an esp costs me around 5k? i want new clothes... i wanna perform for the public...

I will work hard, and make my way up to higher rank. Full time Police, part time musician =)
Cant wait for the 6 months training to finish...

will miss baby... and everything.

2006-09-14T15:36:00.000+08:00

Going to the police force in 26th sept, i suddently felt so sian... Well will be able to see Farhan and Fairuz inside bah, maybe Ding Kiat? well i dunno.. whu else?

Some ppl say, i got in because i have connections inside. Do you think with connections you could really get in? and even with connections do you think one could get in so easily ? I still have to go through the whole same process and panel interview which is really tough. I got in because i was given a second chance for the interview thats all, and i am more confident during the second interview. Compare to the first panel interview, the room had only 3 officers. The second panel interview had 5 officers inside... which one do you think is easier?

Spend my time running and getting myself ready. Thinking about it i have to get ready many things.. its so troublesome, need to buy alot of things and clothes for training. 26th... its coming fast.

I hope my parents will be fine and safe.
Dear will know how to take care of herself and study hard and not so spendthrift.
I would still have time for jamming and music leisure.
Being in the force means more responsibility.
I hope i will be doing fine inside there.
Chant for me...

2006-09-07T19:31:00.000+08:00

jus what the hell is wrong with today...

no mood to go running anymore. I got nothing to do... i dont know what to do. I am just lookin into the monitor...

She is pissed, she is mad, she cant be bothered... Why cant we just talk things calmly , listen to each other and get the picture clear and solve it? Why the shouting and arguments? why...

Somebody's birthday is coming, need to share $ to get a present. I got no money... i dun wan to use my money... i cant be bothered after the fucking attitude he showed. Why the hell would i wanna use my own sweat blood money for this fucker?

really... i gave too much attention to everything... which i shouldnt bother abt it in the first place.
Fuck this world....

2006-09-07T18:08:00.000+08:00

What the hell..... I am stressed to decide things... i am blamed... i am all because i am concern about you...

hurt my fist, flesh tore from my knuckle... blue black and white blood cells keep coming out.... damn it hurts..... i am so feddup!

2006-09-05T20:54:00.000+08:00

Zhen and Geraldine, i had a link to your blog liao! =) hehehee

WEll, jamming was fun and great. Geist was a very good drummer, i am very very happy to have him in the band. we can all play properly together le.

I really looking forward to playing and jamming, now i feel that i really need to improve. My voice is still abit stuck there... everyday need to sing! Open up that boX haha...

Darling has been sooo sweet and sooo good. She is really an angel from heaven, love you baby!

Also.... TO THOSE FUCKERS WHU PISSED ME OFF!!!! I really got alot of shit for u all mother fuckers!

ok yea.. hmm have been looking for a good guitar bag for my guitar, went to sweelee and i saw sooo many new guitars! Gibson custom so many, Fender also so many, and they have the 60th anniversary back in the show room again. Luckily i didnt buy that, its soooo common =) i juz love my Spence, dude i will take u to stage one day!

2006-08-24T12:45:00.000+08:00

Yesterday i was too bored at work... yes u can say i have tooo much time. But the shop is full and i got nothing to do...

so i took out a stack of sticky paper notes which Jenny gave us to use... and then... i draw cartoon >.<

The day before,
Shiya JJ and SernDa came to look for me. Thank you so much for the present! Though its a belated one, but it cheers me up! Its like my everyday also my birthday, always get presents one =) seeing the both of them walking and holding hands put a smile on my face, they look so cute as a couple.

This is a Happy Beans keychain. cute hor? JJ always gave me "Pants", i will have a whole collection!! muahaha

Also i have change my drum setup. Currently i will playing with these, less one tom. I wanna give it a try, the feel in a different setup. It looks more professional with these ya haha, but short of one tom. It trains me to hit from the 1st tom to the floor tom more smoothly.

2006-08-21T21:31:00.000+08:00

talked with mum yesterday... opened up to her. Cried and i felt much better. Yes i am stressed, depression. From what i recall, i cant believe my whole attitude change. i am a totally different person.

Life wont have its meaning and fun if we don't have anything to look forward to... so here it is!

1. Go out and have fun looking and sightseeing things.
2. Having a wonderful time with baby
3. To write more music and have a good jamming session.
4. To go to Japan
5. To be able to perform with baby

Last is, well... ok i got a new guitar. But it doesnt stops here!
Which one looks nicer? XD

i would go for the white one though...

2006-08-19T23:28:00.000+08:00

..... it seems the only way i get to vent my anger is through blogging.

1. Morning is fine with fresh and nice smelling breakfast and sweet company by baby.
2. Busy alone with customers in and out, seems that saturday is getting good in business.
3. I was tired, my eyes are seeing white and i am getting headache.
4. I was waiting for her to come back, i told baby to take her time. i want to go to the toilet.
5. I was scolded for everything and given cold shoulder.
6. I was in a Fucking bad mood and i started shouting in the car.
7. I showed black face and talked impatiently to Gordon.
8. In the end, our turned up was 72 new friends excluding members and leaders.
9. Our target for the total turn up was 50, it was a major victory.

In the car, i told dad i want to turn down Jun Quan's invitation for next week. I had enough of this week's family day already. I want to cancel it. He tried to persuade me to go, he knows i am tired. He is willing to company me and perform with me, he will drive me there and back. but what for? i am TIRED of IT! I AM SICK of it, For this FUCKING DAY! I HAD ENOUGH!

It may not be nice to turn down someone, when i already made a promise... Then how? I am tired of bringing the amplifier, the mic stand, the cables, the guitar up and down.

i am just so sleepy now, i dont intend to go for the morning gongyo tmr morning even if i am forced to go.

2006-08-18T23:58:00.000+08:00

SO FUCKING FEDDUP! I AM SO FUCKING FEDDUP!

i jus t felt like breaking and slamming ANYTHING infront of me! Glasses, Handphone, Mouse, Guitar, Just EVERYTHING!

WHAT THE FUCK!

I AM SO FUCKING BUSY and i dont even have the fucking time to do my stuff and company baby. i go ahead with your wish to play with dad and accepted another invitation just to make you happy. NOW WHAT? I had to do so many things like preparing the LYRICS! OMG~! i cant even talk on the phone peacefully!!!

Help me search the lyrics, ok print... eh can space the words anot? ok print... eh can seperate the two sentences anot? OK FINE! i WILL GET IT DONE AND GIVE U LATER ALRIGHT!?

I am already so bloody stress dont even have time to company baby, cant i even spend time talking to her?! JUST WHAT THE FUCK IS THERE ANY CONSIDERATION FOR ME!? i am working long hours again next week ok, this sunday i only got 3 hrs to go out with her. She said forget it, whats there to do for 3 hrs, i fell right to the bottom. I just wanna CRY and SHOUT out all my anger and sadness!!!!! I am trying my best to give my time to you... I felt so FUCKING SHIT in the middle of more troubles. I felt like rejecting the other invitation, I really want to do it!

after talking to her.... i have cooled down... i'm cool. ok... cool...

2006-08-17T20:20:00.000+08:00

This is an entry for baby.
I promise i will update here when i have the time, oftenly =)

Thank you for understanding me... i will spend more time with ya during the last week of my job.

Love you baby!

2006-08-17T12:58:00.000+08:00

Joke of the day =) i was completely down, felt like banging into the wall or something.
Xin Hao one of my customers told me something amusing and funny.. He works in Carl's Junior in suntec.

Xin Hao: "CHEE- FRY!!!" (Chilli Fries)
Boss: "!!! Kelvin! your staff is using vulgarities!"
Kelvin: Xin Hao come here! what you say just now?"
Xin Hao: "Chee-FRY lor~"
Boss: (points finger) "You see!?"
Boss: "If you dont speak properly, the customer will think that you are scolding them"

i had a good laugh for the moment =)

i got plans, i want to do what i want, before things goes out of hand.. If it disappoints u mum.. i am sorry... i go towards what i feel and what i think is right. One by one things and obstacles are raising up. I dont felt like doing, but somehow i was pushed and forced to.. i just dont want to make them unhappy.

"My favourite songs, My favourite TV shows are never ending..."

2006-08-17T01:09:00.000+08:00

5 months away from blogging. I have been away enjoying life, couldnt be bothered to update here.

But in the end, i am back...

Baby is sleeping, she has class in the morning... i am feeling moody. i got no one to talked to. i like being alone.... not.... I am tired after 10 hours of work. I had to do my report, which is half way done. i haven't got time for anything.. no time to go out, no time to see how the world has change. no time to update myself. no time to spend with baby. I need a good break after this.

Mum passed me the papers. Ben & Jerry icecream are giving young bands outside exposure. They perform, they are not paid, but they get to eat as much ice cream as they want. Good deal? i find it so. I want to perform. I want to exposure myself out with my band. we have been playing for more than a year. We played mostly in SSA, we started from stage... and now down to the corner of the stage. i felt terrible. we have been given opportunities by SSA, i am happy. But we never made it to the out of SSA yet. Still in search of drummer. We were good, now we are short. We got elaine now. i am putting my fingers crossed... i hope she can make it as one of our contributive member.

Before my ns, i wanna see the stage again and be singing on it and playin on it again...
i am tired...

2006-03-20T21:18:00.000+08:00

Yesterday i had great time ne. Dinner was so surprising haha , my parents actually come out of no where to celebrate my birthday! Junting arrange secretly for all of us to get together to celebrate my birthday =) this is my best bdae ever celebrated lor... i am so happy and yeah so happy, it was memorable.

She wrote me a letter and a mini Marshall amp ne! haha gosh its so small yet powerful ar~ think its strong to wake my neighbours up =p hehee, i love it dear~

and so many friends sms me to wish me... sooo many which really touched me => all my wonderful friends and buddies including Auntie Lian Chew! i didnt expect it ahaha =) popo and Ah yi call to wish me~ darling sms me, zhen&keng, yiting, shiya, obrin, shaun, charles, yuzhen, lishan, stella, and also yinsen in me testimonial, darling too!

Dinner at JAck place was nice, mum enjoy very mum the food and the wine and the cake hahah... Darlin as usual order the Fire thingy steak hahaha... dad went to order wine lor , and i was like omg... junting dunno got enuff to pay mah lol but in the end, dad was fast enough la, so dad pay =) dear can save her money hehee =P

den got this group also celebrating bdae, the jack place went to play this Kids singing BIRTHDAY song lor!!! i was shock! omg... bu hui shi wo bah... i was so stunned there. den that group was
laughing so loud, orh~ so its them hahah i was like "wah heng..." hahah darlin say infact got mine one lor, but the jack place only played once for them. So mum dad dear sang the song for me =) its more meaningful ne hehee~ thank you! the cake is yummmyyyyyy....

Darling was so sweet in arrangng this wonderful occasion for me..

oh ya... we drank red wine, very nice wor~ darling cant walk straight after that, i am ok~ but once i am home i knockoff liao, really slept well sia haha, dear also knockoff, she even got headache and she drank 3 glass!!!! hahhaa!

here is the Marshal amp, so cute... infact i wanted one of this a long long time ago. Guess wad? she really know wad i actually wan haha muackz~!

My mother and kid hahah~ the mini one i can actually bring it back to malaysia to play using my electric =) finally can really enjoy my stay back in malaysia le!

This is the first present she got for me... a small mini guitar haha , now the Amp! complete set! =P

Happy birthday to me! i am 20!

2006-03-08T17:16:00.000+08:00

nice isnt it?.... its such small surprises that touches me...

i am sad... depressed... working at my shop hasnt been good. firstly was the coms i need to shut off properly coz they cant he off thru my main admin PC. Jenny has ben reminding to off the coms and aircon, need to save electricity... well... i that night i off properly, but i forgot to off the air con... i thikn jenny knows too. following another day i settle everything, i off the COms properly and aircon, but i forgot to restock the mee... haiz...

ytd jy asking js to come to our shop, i kept asking jy was if jenny saw js sitting in the counter? hw? he said he dunno... well i tried to tell js to sit outside, for quite a while he did. den jy went out for dinner, he told js to come in and sit. well iwanted to say but den js come in and sit liao...later jenny came and saw js sitting beside me... well, its me again!

jian xiang say jenny said ytd its better not to let anyoutside to sit near the counter.... haiz, i haven been performing up to standard these days. its me...

i am sad.... went out of the shop and dear is not sitting around. i know she is not happy after telling her abt ytd... haiz, how come its me again? i really hope jenny dun take it serious abt my mistakes, esp with JS sitting beside me.

dear.... can i see you now?... i really need someone....

2006-03-08T15:33:00.000+08:00

2006-03-07T09:47:00.000+08:00

Haven been online lately, was so busy... also lazy to update this blog...
been busy wif work, have to wor so that i can get thru my SIP. i cant affort to fail it again.

Went out wif dear, really miss her alot. shes been good =) givin my surprises. love you dar~

so busy... JJ! i haven forgotten you, lets keep touch thru mails hehee~ see ya!

2005-11-28T09:20:00.000+08:00

Happy Anniversary To Darling Junting
Always
Loving You, Missing you.

You have been great and strong with me, i am really happy ne. And have been greatly loved by you =)

2005-10-15T22:26:00.000+08:00

My eyes are straining... this place is tiring..

i regret what i said, i really want to see you... all i think is about the time and the time u will be wasting travelling alone haiz... and you goin back to rest. i was hoping that you will come.. i am sorry, i know you are disappointed for what i said...

i miss you...

2005-10-08T11:18:00.000+08:00

Been a month away.. so lazy to type ne.
But just now reading my first 3 months of blogging, i really find its better to blog.. in future i can view how was my past days were ya! those times were really momorable, and i want to keep it =)

Viewing of how i form a band last time, my life at TP, knowing new friends, going for a dance performance wif JJ, going for Junting's Choir performance, performing for NDP... haha so many events had actually happened in my life.

Getting to know her more and start holding her hands, telling her how much i love her.
Forming a Band call SHIROI,

It started wif me bringing a guitar to sch, and i get to know shaun, he is from my class. He plays the bass~ den we both know obrin. So we started to jam. 3 of us... den Anny came to me for help for one opening performance. We helped her. Later a soka performance, shaun pulled CheeKeen in. And i pulled Anny in and after that performance. WE are together as a band officially. Later we call ourselves Shiroi. And we had ourselves performing as SHIROI at SSA's Friday Rendezvous @ ICA. Where we had over 1000 audiences. thats the day we really felt good playing together with our music, everyone was cheering... it was like total chaos. We all felt like a star... my mum and dad were watching us, and my dear too.

Working for like 4 weeks le? At this LAN shop. my dear comes to my shop to visit me after her work =) she even bring food for me... i really love her so much. Its such simple cares and concern touch me ne hehee... she is working too, only get to go out wif her on sunday. and go find her for lunch bah. Obrin went back to Indo, will be back on 23rd. i am working on new songs now. after when he is back, i will go full force on new songs.

Life has been fine so far, i am happy wif my Band mates. its coming to 6 months or wif my dear it may seem short but we have been through alot together =)

Starting sch... i am going to be stressed. i got to clear 8 subjects. like it or not, i have to work real hard to clear. And then carry on my SIP. life is really tough... but i am going to get through it... i am working hard to the time where i can support my family and myself, having my career and freedom... ^.-

2005-09-15T21:09:00.000+08:00

he is too busy to blog.. so here am i, updating for hi. of course, i am not him, so i don't know what to blog. haha... i just wanna tell the whole world that he has been bullying me. haizz... i am so ke lian... sobz... =P

2005-09-06T12:51:00.000+08:00

miss ya badly....................

2005-09-04T01:38:00.000+08:00

at this point of time, i need you most.
it pains me to see you like that...
your worries are mine too.
i will share them with ya...

be strong; at least, for me.
smile for me...
thats all i ask from you.

-junting-

2005-09-03T23:41:00.000+08:00

yesterday was a moody bad day in the morning..

today, it started out fine. Had a sore throat, and dear came to my place for lunch... i was really happy that i had a chance to see her once more and spend some time together... i wanted her to go home after that when i am goin suntec.. but , it wont be nice juz asking her to go home. i am worried abt her studies and exams are juz next week. really i dun wan it to affect her results, i wan her to score and do well... study hard, i am sorry i had u spend the entire day with me.... i sounded so contradicting..

later on at suntec, all was fine untill when ann wanted to go see obrin. my main motive is to support jin wen, yes we saw him. the contest is at 5.30pm, his grp is number 16, each grp takes 3 mins... yes, we wished him, but i wanna be there to watch them dance and stay till the final results. i wanna be there dude, i am sorry... ya may not know how i feel, but i really felt bad. i messaged him, called him, theres no reply, i hope he is not angry. I really pray hard that his dance grp would made it till the finals...

its also bad to make ann to go by herself to go find obrin, but... i regretted, i should have made her go herself. i should make my own decision and stay there throughout the competition, as that was my main motive. dear know how i feel... i am sorry, its from there i dont feel good le, even now i am still frustrated.... ann said we will return in an hour's time, i should have know tt her time arrangement is bad. and we have to waste the time walking one whole big circle to peninsula. yes i went to luther to try out my telecaster, but wad can i do? will it be nice if i rushed everyone and chased u all to test out the guitar fast and quick?

choosing dinner was a real headache also... i am feelin guilty, i am feelin bad, i am feelin unhappy about everything. good thing dear is with me, else its hard for me to keep up wif my show... i will juz show my black face. i am sorry darling... you have a headache now, and also tired... how to study ne... haiz... my fault. should have send you back in the first place, den i head to suntec... i find that i am wasting your time. please scold me and say i nv thinking about you, wasting your time and energy...

i am also sick as well... the chalet is giving me problems, i dun feel like going, and money is a really huge problem to me.... wads the point of paying where i am not goin? i will be working, i wont feel like going... but i made a promise.. tmr, will be havin a rehearsal at anny's house, i dunno how lar... i juz dun wanna think abt it.

my stomach is killing me... i am happy that Jenny wanted me to start work this monday... that is good news, i will work hard bah... and also i am happy that she is with me today, but... i am sorry for the sour mood earlier and taking yoour time away from your studies. my mum thanked you for the mooncakes ne..

2005-08-26T09:13:00.000+08:00

feeling bad all the while, even now i felt even more guiltier...

i've said so many times.... i am sorry...

2005-08-22T22:57:00.000+08:00

today was a wonderful day!

firstly, we went to PS to watch THE MAID!!!!

i was really excited how will the show turn out, as i thought singapore production films wont be scary wif stupid story lines. but i was wrong!!!! the story line was good, and she was like keep hiding by my shoulder =P anyway the show is great, it IS scary k~ haha but i am tough! ^_- den after the show, as we were leaving PS, one auntie gave me the Bridal Studio phamphlet, she told us can sall her if we wanna take pics! OMG~ hahahaha!!!

Dear really took some time to get back to normal after the show, think she really scared dao lian ching ching lolx! sorry for scaring ya ne~ den later we went to et taiwan sausages! she was happy to eat it hehee, den we went to Heren, look here see there sooo many things ne. den i learn abt the pig skin shoes! wow, i cant believe it its really made of pig's skin! but its cute hehee...

den later hmm... we went to Takashimaya! ok, we have been to orchard so many times, kinda boring ne~ hahah den we walked around, and really i enjoyed her company. den we headed to city hall ne, and we were suppose to go to Peninsula... wanted to see the guitar strap and maybe test out the japan telecaster... den i was thinking if we go there, only do these 2 things lor... very sian and nothing much to see bah, so i told her to go to suntec bah~ i know she was abit unhappy, so tried to explain to her ne... in the end everything is ok =) thank you for understanding ne, i also thought abt u ne... as suntec gt more things to see mah ya! =)

but den we went to MS to chop woods and kill mushrooms hahah... den we headed down to Esplanade for dinner at Thai Express ne. guess wad! the man recognise me! coz ytd i went there to eat wif my family -__- i juz dun understand why ppl like to remember me ar? gee~ and she keeps giving me half of her share of food lor, hahah juz like my mum always gives her food to either me or my dad lolx...

later we sat by esplanade, and we had heart to heart talk ne... i really treasure that moment i had with her, and i share wif her a part of the book abt Young Lovers by Ikeda sensei. WE talked about it and comment it and dear express how she felt ne... hehee, i am happy. And i will keep my promise to you =) lets stay strong in this relationship, and i will only leave after you leave me =) and we will look at the same direction~ "look at the durian~" -__- gosh, next time we muz take pictures of ourselves looking at the durian haha!

later is home sweet home ne! had a "Fast" train ride home... really miss her, i dun wanna part wif her ne... but time pass fast. Coz she will be busy, i may not have the time wif her. But i will sure to see you on friday ya. Love you...

2005-08-19T13:30:00.000+08:00

wah lao! my dear missed out one point lor, Affectionate =X

Loves to Dream and Fantacise.... Faint* hahaha
sommore HAsty Decisions in Choosing partners! are u sure its from this quiz ne? hmm... well, actually i am lor, when it comes to choosing partners. But after everything, all the "Hasty Decisions" it all comes to the ultimate , absolute decision i have made. Choosing Junting =) heeex

there goes for the Quiz, dont i have an Attractive Personality? no? hmmz....

Hey Folks, i am having a performance at SSA Hq:

26th August 2005
Friday Rendezvous
Singapore Soka Association @ Tamp st 81
Ikeda Cultural Hall, at the top floor.

Free Admission, come support ne~ see ya!

there will be other performance as well, other singers, dancers haha~ i will be in the last item =)

2005-08-18T15:13:00.000+08:00

what she thinks about me.. (those bolded =P)

Subject: What your birth month means

MARCH

1. Attractive personality
2. Affectionate
3. Shy and reserved
4. Secretive
5. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic
6. Loves peace and serenity
7. Sensitive to others
8. Loves to serve others
9. Not easily angered
10. Trustworthy
11. Appreciative and returns kindness
12. Observant and assess others
13. Revengeful
14. Loves to dream and fantasize
15. Loves traveling
16. Loves attention
17. Hasty decisions in choosing partners
18. Loves home decors
19. Musically talented
20. Loves special things
21. Moody

wah liao... i where got honest... and point 17.... LOLz... real? =P

2005-08-15T10:03:00.000+08:00

yesterday was an okay day, follow by a fucked up situation and then come by an relaxing time.

Jammed at wee lee b4 heading down to tsc. Everything sounded pretty fine and okay. Dear met up with us =) she fall down the escalator while coming to see us, ya know.. i was so worried, tot u really hurt yourself okay! next time becareful ne... glad she is alright haha.

Head to Tsc for the jamming audition. ok the amps are good, but we are not used to it, startin everything sounded like shit! esp obrin's amp... and the drums! i hated that hollow bassy sound lor. Drums arent even tune up. Kenneth, why didnt u tune the drums? tot u tune it up le ne~ and CK beated soooo hard and lound. have to tell him to control his force when hitting liao~ ask him control Force Controlling haha.. starting turn out terrible, i am soo disappointed liao... you can tell by my face. I am black all over, sour...

Then follow by this daring guy who wanted to sing I for You, i tot he has no one to accompany him lar, ok fine nvm, we play for u lor... juz now i already sing I for you le, he muz have heard, so maybe he could sing better tts y he came to me? ok we played.... Obrin was standing behind him laughing, he looked at me, i wanted to laugh but i controlled ne! hahaha... ok the entire song turned out off pitch, but the music play was alrighty... and he ask me can he sing this song anot? wa lao u liddat ask me , wad can i say? i say can Cann~~ Caan~~ den later when to discuss wif my mates, and we told naren to tell him off. so i tot everything settle. and this boy, he will be singing 2 songs wif a pianist to accompny him, den he still wants to play wif a band? WTF! plz lor, u got sumbody to accompany u, den dun try to be with us...

frankly speaking, the way u sing will really pull our reputation down. WE are a BanD not sessionist players ok! Please go ask ur GF to listen to ur singing, and ask her to comment! if cant, den u can ask my GF! hahah... i felt so terrible after the first run thru... the amps turn out shit, the drums shit, and we get to play 4 songs, hope to get at least 5 songs... and this thick skinned guy... i was so stressed...

When we had the room for ourselves to practice, this boy came and stayed in the room and try to help us adjust mic, adjust the mixer -__- plz lor, i can do it myself. and then when i was singing, he come and sing together wif me! i tot of telling him to fuck off, but i juz kept singing. we all ignored him, but it seems like he didnt get the message lor... and then he came to ask me if we know how to play this, play that~? man, whu the fuck u think u are? even sessionists get PAID! plz lor, go get a CD and sing wif the CD playing ok boy? damn... he is really so thicked skin, den he say he wanna sing the YCF theme song, slow one... i purposely play it damn slow on drums now... as CK had to left early. den he say tooo slow, so i play DAMn fast! hahahaha!!! fun SIA!!! and what... theres one time he asked me if he could sing together with Anny a duet? oh man... plz lor, haiz... i know saying all this is very bad, its very very bad... but if i were to see him again, i think i will have to be the bad guy alright. plz dun hold it against me, you have to understand us... we are made up of good players and better singers. The stage is ours, the slot is ours, theres no need for outsiders to come in. Thank you...

Next session, i will do something on the drums... CK if ur reading this hor, bring ur Drum key next session k!

haiz... sianz.... i am broke... k bah, meeting dear , gtg...

2005-08-13T00:30:00.000+08:00

Lemme recall the days...

Working in John Little was a fun experience, i had joy ne~ Never been a chasier, but heng my partner whu is a permanent cashier coach me patiently lor. And its so easy, like being a cashier hahah but only for certain times la~, most of the time is being a packer. Kinda tired standing for so loooongggg~~ den have to move quickly den early in the morning come to expo and fold clothes do house keeping haha! so sianz~ but fun lar, we fold nice nice, den after a day its all messed up.

Taken at the Airport, after my first day of work ^_^

National Day was a joyous one for me =) gotto spend this day wif dear. and guess what my house behind can see fireworks!!! cooL YA! and SOKA did a perfect performance ne! the formation was nice, the colors changes was nice~ everything was nice haha... mum was happy ne! Luckily Dear came, and she saw the wonderful lovely fireworks hhaha~

Happy National Day!

ALso last nite i went to watch the Nestor Torres, he came back to singapore for 2 shows. Which is more on his story of his overcomings ne... its so nice lor, den got other muscians accompany him to play. one of em is the Vietnamese music player, whu plays a very weird instrument, i have nv seen it in my life! hahah, i love nestor's smile ne~~

TOday Jamming , i had to be the drummer... CK couldnt make it. Dear came haha~ think its her first time coming to a jaming room? hope she finds it okay and not bored with us lor lolx! anyway my drums hor, i play well ok! except for one part... my stick flew to Obrin almost hit him hahaha! =X aftet that we had drinks and had a good time talking.. man Obrin is a joker as always i kept laughing non stop... he and Anny ar, really can get real well ne! Dear i think she also cant stand their jokes haha.

well tts all ne... need a good nites rest!

2005-08-08T07:11:00.000+08:00

Yesterday, went to watch the Nostalgia night at Soka HQ. Fantastic ne~ all the wonderful old melodies all came back to life! =) best is, junting came to watch with me ... i am really happy, able to see her again as i was busy working at JL. Guest WAt? Lanni was our special guest! yea, she sang so wonderfully. She could sing and able to reach all the high note.. without her this event wont be successful bah? and yeah, she is slim and sexy~ muahaha~~~ her posture has style ne.

Say Mei Ling ANd Kenneth perform, they were ok. Started the ball rolling~ nice...
And then we all had to do Gongyo! i was unprepared for lor... nv bring my beads. haha, and dear get to see our gohonzon and get to hear how our way of chanting ne~ infact i was kinda glad hehee... and this dear ar! while doing gongyo i cant remember lor, also nv bring my gongyo book come, so i chanted softer and mumbling the words haha, and i didnt know she sat beside me kept looking at me -__- say i dun remember issit? aRRgh~~ >_<

Then Dad came to play the harmonica, can tell he is DAMN vervous hahah... haiz, infact there were some mistakes but, its ok as it was a Jazz style piece. Sometimes it doesnt have to sound that way, but it is still Ok and good. Can tell dad wass very disappointed ne... as the last part he played wrongly >_<~~~ nvm bah, its alright to me hehe...

then followed by one boy he looks malay, but i heard he is chinese. Man he has a good voice, good in oldies ne~ his vibrato very good hahah~

Next was the father and song, Hideki did i spell it right? and his father Alpf? hahah... they played and sang Subaru!!! OMG~~~~~ u know which one am i impressed with? the Drummer hahah!!! the drummer was good in his stroking lor... i REally love his timing and beat, its so stable and nice! and they also played one Cantonese oldies veery nice! that man can sing =)

only i for got abt one lady whu sang 2 oldies song, she is a damn fantastic singer....den follow by Lanni, she is still the wonderful one and the star of the night~ sang many songs~ and wahh... so niceeeeeeeeeee~~ i love the American TaLe that song.. felt likg hugging dear hehee..

ok bah, den we had supper.. during supper my parents and my aunt talked.... i know some topics they talked dear is thinking something. As it reminded her of it, i know it when i look at her... really dear, dun sad ya. then after that we go home le =) see ya~~ i had a wonderful night!

2005-08-02T00:24:00.000+08:00

Today went out with Junting, my darling~

so long like haven seen her, i have also been very busy lately. Occupied ne...
But today was a fun loving day ^_^

Firstly she got me 2 shirts, they both look real nice on me =) i am so happy, really really greatly appreciate that she got me clothes ne, Muackz!

Then today we went to suntec, at suntec i met Auntie Dorris and his hubby. They were old couples, despite being old hor.. they still go out shopping and go out walking around town lor. Really adire them! thats what everyone should learn, the love still stays even when old =) and we had lunch at Kenny Rogers! yummy ne~ i got table manners one ya, eat and cut my chicken so nicely! oh ya.... the cheese macroni tasted so yummy lor!!!!! =P~~~

Then later we went to Peninsula, man i am really tempted lor.... i saw many Fender Strats today, and also Telecasters... i am attracted to the telecaster at LutherMusic, the japan made. Black wif white pickguard lor... haiz... but i dun have the money to buy, really i will save up and get one! :p actually wanted to sell my Les Paul ytd but the seller didnt want it... i was disappointed, tot could get some money ne... well nvm. then later we went to bugis!

At bugis we went to take neoprints!!!

First time taking with darling... i really love it so much... i was in total spirits and filled with joy when i keep looking at it. I must say she is good at decorating the prints hahah~ ^_^ we also went to drink bubble tea, then i accidntly BURP! lor... dear was damn shocked and reacted so huge lor... really sorry ar.. its an accident de ya~

Then we head down to Bugis Village, wah so many shits !!! Dammit i was really tempted to get shirt(S) got one i asked the auntie, she say 10 dollars... i go walk ard den come back she say 16 dollars!!! WTH! den she say she see wrongly juz now, the boss tell her its wrong price.... haiz! i should have bought it in the first place at 10 dollars lor!!!!! geeez....

then later at one shop one of the shop girl came and ask me if i am a soka member? gosh! i am recognise, she saw me at the Concert with my band that day... haha, i was really like huh!? Michelle is not a mamber, but her grandmother is. Then another thing is, darling and me walk into bugis again... it was damn hot we really need air-con haha...

At one of the shops this man came talk to me!!! am i a soka member!? i was like OMG! not again~ hahaha! geez... and he keeps talking, he saw me everywhere , many times le, my performance, my band, ycf also. Terrence was from the Gym Core ne~ he is a member and he really has strong faith as he keeps talking to me about nichiren daishonin buddhism haha!

Later dear went to converse and try shirts, ya know... she looks good in pink shirt lor!!! dunno why she finds it ugly haiz~ hahaha but really, you look good in pink! pink! pink =P i think i today really irritate her liao... i better stop :p see ya!

2005-07-28T20:28:00.000+08:00

When a girl is quiet,
Millions of things are running in her mind.
When a girl is not arguing,
She is thinking deeply.
When a girl looks at you with eyes full of questions,
She is wondering how long you will be around.
When girl answers "I'm fine" after a few seconds,
She is not at all fine.
When a girl stares at you,
She is wondering why you are lying.
When a girl lays on your chest,
She is wishing for you to be hers forever.
When a girl calls you everyday,
She is seeking for your attention.
When a girl wants to see you everyday,
She wants to be pampered.
When a girl sms you everyday
She wants you to reply at least once.
When a girl says I love you,
She means it.
When a girl says that she can't live without you.
She has made up her mind that you are her future.
When a girl says "I miss you",
No one in this world can miss you more than that.

2005-07-27T11:37:00.000+08:00

NDP PICTURES!!!!

for those who is sooo eager to know, but dunno what this year's ndp will be like... here it is!

My dad and me! and i was shocked to find one of my YCF participants was sitting behind me!!! his face smiling juz behind me at the right BUAhahahah~~~ it gave me a total shock when i first looked at this picture =D

Junting-CHan and me~

The Screen we are all looking at, and next is the Durian.

Heads up! its the paratroopers!

The Parade

Ma-ju la~~~ la la la~

THe Planes! Lucky Accurate shot hehee~ =P

The Chinook Choppers~

our soka item! my mum is inside =)

Party Poppers!!! COnfettis~

Fire~

Works~

All time Favourite fireworks, the golden waterfall ne~

And the picture of the day is!!!!!!.....
Ta dah~~~

while everyone is taking fireworks, i took a picture of them! muahaha~~~
all were using their Hps taking pictures all the same postures!

2005-07-26T11:46:00.000+08:00

yesterday went out with dear, it was so much fun. she like so funny also~ holding me to balance while she was folding her jeans lolx! and i pushed her =X! also at the coffee bean i kept irritating her, then eh... food court i kept irritating her, many funy stuffs =P and yeah we went to watch red candy~ its not scary at all ar, think i immune liao... she was grabbing me so tightly hahaha. in the end who grab whu ar dear? =P hehee~

Red Candy is a jap horror movie, a lil diff from the ring. but its very complicated. i watch also dunno who is whu... but its a real thriller and mystery, and that is very good. There will be part 2, well some parts are kinda like... where u will comment "Oh my goodness!" hahah but well, its a good catch though... theres also strong love in this movie, which one sacrifice one for another, so be sure not to miss it! Uncle Wong rate this movie... 4 POP Corns! hahaha! =P why i rate so high? becoz my partner was so scared so its a high rate ya! so make sure to bring ur loved ones go! ^_6

Uncle wong will go now, see ya soon for the next movie! =)

movie coming up: "The Maid" =P

2005-07-24T00:42:00.000+08:00

today has been a very fine day!

in the morning, me and my dad went to send mom to ICA. then went to Andy's hair dressing opening of the shop. Then went to fetch dear to my place.. haha

she came to my place, and guess what!!!! she wrote me a love letter... aww thats so nice of her lor. i read le, really it touched me deep inside... another surprise was, she baked cookies for me and my family!!! i was surprise lor... and it tasted fine and chocolatie~ yummy. she really puts in alot of effort and time in it... eat le i really feel the love in the cookie haha =P she slept at 4am last nite... coz of baking and writing the letter... haiz, dear u really did so much for me lor.. Muacks!

then went for the NDP combine Rehersal show, but also the NE show 3 lar~ starting was drizzling. we were looking into our stupid ugly shitty bags. craps are inside, nothing seem good only the tambourine haha!!! the show was good, i enjoy the Air show best! its been a long while lor~ and also the Soka Item. from my view i cant see much, but i can feel its really wonderful wif the changing of colors and the light display~ the fireworks was good too!

the President, and the prime minister looks damn funny lor! we all laughed like hell when they came out from the car! becoz, the Prime minister turned out to be a young boy wif a funny hair style! and then the president, they purposely go find one Ah nei to be the president
hahaha!!! omg~

mum came back and tasted the cookies, even dad tasted too... they both say it was good! =)
mum thanked her and even say she was so sincere ne~ heehee

oh ya took a whole lot of pictures, some good ones~ some blur ones... i will post more later. Meanwhile here are some...

the cookies and the love letter.... its all filled with love...

this was taken on monday, at star bucks =)

2005-07-22T08:59:00.000+08:00

having dreams lately... dreams that made me scared and stressed, even when i woke up i dont feel good. dreaming about my SIP haiz... and also last nite someone was like chasing me wanting to kill me, and i was runing for my life...

2005-07-20T01:17:00.000+08:00

today went to John Little the walk in interview, wah! i went ther at 2.30pm... its really raining like hell. after the interview also raining heavily! den i went to PS, have lunch den i come out also RAINING! hahah~

went to the orchard JL, and infront of me got ard 30 ppl infront of me le~ i went at 2.30pm. fill in the form... alot of adults, aunties and uncles, some youngsters haha... and i was the second grp whu went in for the briefing. the the jobs as basket collector and fitting rooms person all taken liao!!! kaoz~~~ easy job all taken haha, wad seh.. but their incentives is $25 for morning shift, anf $80 for night shift. i myself took the job as Packer in the morning, so night time can have my own activities hehee... but being as packer still has to do some cashiering lor haiz...

no one wants to be cashier, have to do rotating shift, but their incentives is $150! mine being a packer is $100~ hahaha

last nite tokin JJ damn funny lor, she was like so enthu into JL!!! i asked her abt JL jobs mah~ den she tell me lots and lots of stuff sia~ hahah and like to excited lolx!!! its fun tokin wif her...

den after that took a train to PS, and wth! the guitar i am attracted to is gone!!! the black color de... mei you le... its taken off from the display showcase le, but Anny's pink guitar is still there haha. haiz~ well nvm, infact ya know wad? i was waiting for sumone to buy lor, den later that person sell it away at Luthermusic, den i can buy at a much more cheaper haha! well, tts wad i hope for lar... had my lunch there too, the indo grilled chicken, DAMN nice =P~

oh ya, i wanna work in yamaha~ den i was lookin for papers sticking outside lor, hoping they looking for ppl to work. den theres one that says they are looking for cashiers! haha able to work 3 days a week and one day during weekends lar~ good personality lar blah blah... den when i see the last thing i disappointed le... "Students Need not APPLY" KAOZ! i dun care ar, if no job, i after john little sale i go seek this job~ ask them to employ me haha.

today this dear ar... really damn hyper lor! first time ever tokin to her on the phone dearing her so hype up! and cheerful lor~ makes me happy too =) smile more ya! haha..

2005-07-18T18:57:00.000+08:00

just realised that my first blog entry is on her bday date. so coincidence. haha...

nothing to blog...

just wanna say... i miss you.

2005-07-14T11:24:00.000+08:00

man i had a dream last nite... wad does it mean? met an old and not so close friend in my dreAM, now if u ask me i dunno whu is he liao lolx! and we were over at Wee Lee, i was duno doin wad. And he got an ESP EDWARDS Eclipse I model, and i tried it... the model was okay... den weird weird one leh. Mum got lost in other shopd dunno where she go, and dad try to call and find her. While i was trying out that guitar. Funny dreams i always have... haha, is it telling me to buy that Guitar?

i am looking for one that suits me entirely, and i havent found any yet. Weird ne~~~ lolx

Anyway L'Arc en ciel rocks, always love their catchy sentimental songs =)
hmm Ken's old guitar model looks good to me hehee...

2005-07-12T22:20:00.000+08:00

Went out wif darling yesterday, we had a good whole day yah!

met her, and we went to PS to watch War of the Worlds, its my second time watching it! but its ok lar, i dun wan her to miss it ne... coz its quite nice! and she paid for the tickets lor.. haha, gee... i think she went out wif me really spend alot of money haha, and she bought the L`Arc~en~ciel album for me too!!! Really thankyou darling, spend so much money le~ infact i wanted to get the Album de, den the DVD concert i wait next time den get. but she take the album and go cashier liao~ den we there push here push and there the HMV guy was like "wad the hell~? dun play here..." hahaha~ =X

we had lunch at Pasta Mania, really ate till we were bloated! hahaha~ coz we both ate creamy chicken, den she wanted the Potato Salad, and i got her desert lolx! the Strawberry CreXXX dunno wad. Darling you are always my strawberry ya!

then we went walking around, and i got her a pencil case coz hers was spoilt, and we had Thai Express for dinner! gosh... we were lucky to find one outlet in Paragon.

Today pack my room, and shift my drum set... shift wrongly coz i got the wrong "BLUE PRINT" from my dad hahah, tmr have to try to test shifting here and there to see how bah. Tmr goin to Changi Airport to meet up wif my TPSD buddies for a meeting.

Dear is havin her BBQ ne, wonder hows she? muz be enjoying her self =) see ya!

2005-07-09T23:59:00.000+08:00

Today went to meet dear in the evening~ and we met Jin Quan and Eeling haha~ gosh we always got spotted by this couple one haha... we went to see fireworks! as today was the NE show, so many primary 5 kids ne~~ the fire works was nice! really enjoy that moment, well theres still preview and the real day ya! =) i will bring a camera!

we went to marina sq and we got lost? haha, but we manage to find our way~ dear is better in directions =P and yeah.. bought her a bracelet! hope ya like it yeah~ haha..

i know she has been busy since her papers, now busy wif projects... but jia you ya! i will always be around to support you when u feel like falling.

studious hor~ hahah

us~

2005-07-07T00:37:00.000+08:00

Haiz.... i dunno why such things always happen to me de ne... so suay! dunno is it becoz i blur or the information passed to me is wrong haiz....but i think also good lar... if not it would be damn rushing and short so... aiya nvm lar. But geez... everything happen so fast lor and then, the next thing i know is... i may have to wait again.. why am i always so slow? why huh? haiz...

Argh jus ignore the above lar...

The YCF was a successful one, its been 5 days since... very touched and happy to spend our last moment as trainers with our participants and my fellow trainers and choreographers. Receiving thanks and warm hugs from everyone, as well as wonderful gifts =) Thank you all!

Singapore Expo Hall 5

Briefing by Keng Tee

Mok and me

Wei Yi the Obachang~

Group "D"

Fun! Fun! Fun!

my 2 new friends i brought, Jia Sheng and Diana. Thank you for joining!

Jia Sheng and me

my fellow partner, Angela! and i look like one of her sisters~ hahaha...

TPSD participants, jia you!

JJ came to watch! JJ and DD hahah...

JJ told me, after she watch our 3pm performance she saw a Rainbow outside suntec! Our YCF HQ1 theme is Rainbow of Peace. And it was really amazing that a rainbow actually appeared outside ^_^ here it is!

the rainbow outside EXPO

who's clogs are these? i am the left one =P

Mum and dear came to watch the night performance... i was very happy to see dear too, kinda disappointed that i didnt had a picture with her, theres no camera ne...

2005-07-01T01:25:00.000+08:00

i've had so many things happening to me... and challenges, tough times ahead of me...

i am happy that you told me how u feel... thank you
it is alright dear, but yeah i felt sad... and low
we have come a long way now
please dont think so much and badly about me
i promise i will provide you
please dont doubt about this
i really put in alot into this precious relationship
i am not similar and perfect to the guy as you wanted...
but its me that i showed you, and its this me that loves you so dearly
i am very happy to be with you, i really want to spend my life with you...

2005-06-23T11:24:00.000+08:00

man... i had a dream last night...

some dream i never had before ne, and it makes me... I WANNA GO BACK!!!!! argh~
It was a dream, i dream iwas on a small stage playin with LUNA SEA!!!! i met Sugizo, Inoran and J, but not Shinya the drummer lor... Anyway can see Sugizo i happy le! haha he is so cool and handsome, i talked to him, he is so friendly! his english was a lil bad but it sounds ok? I had a close encouter with him lor... WOW~ Then i play with them on stage, and i want more! haha

Oh well... too bad its only dream. It will never come true one lar~ i could only dream of it. No way any of them would come to singapore one =( haha anyway, very long nv blog le... some things happened, but yeah.. it is fine now.

i am gonna do some chanting le... see ya!

ps: oh ya~ i love my gf alot de ne... i wont ill treat her one de hor! hahaha~ =P Bleahz~

2005-06-21T17:44:00.000+08:00

tc wanna me to tell you people that he is too busy to blog. haha... he asked me to blog instead. he told me that he ill treated his gf. haha... ok lah, i am just helping him to crap. =P

2005-06-10T11:42:00.000+08:00

Boss is so busy.. he comes liao den Daphne went in to talk to him, talk for sooo long. Then quickly after that Ailing went in and he is on a call... -___- how to talk to him ? this is one difficult for me lor...

just now i just recalled one of my dreams, think its a couple of nights before.... i got a shaky tooth, and i went to shake and loosen it... then pulled it out. Got some blood, and i tasted blood! eh... tasted so real ne, but what was i tasting when i as dreaming? hahah geez~

2005-06-10T09:44:00.000+08:00

Last day of the week... weekend is nearing.

I am abit sad to know Andrew is leaving, he is a very good man with lots of meaningful quotes. He left this company liao... he may wanna start his own firm. wow ne~ he is the colleague sitting beside me... i miss him, he is really such a nice guy. And a good father too...

Now i got another colleague beside me, she is Ailing... one mother.. the father leaves, here comes a mother. But she is very good looking, one hot ma-ma~ the companies Flower haha! but i still prefer Andrew!!!!! with him i learn alot of things...

Just now i passed Daphne the back up CD of the company... den daphne say that i pass to Richard. Then about other things, she say i should report to Richard, so that he knows what am i doing... then she say muz make myself Value-added! WTF is value-added? i mean working here add wad value? den i ask her lor~~~ den she say "that time i have a long tok to u, u dun understand ar? that time ask u, u say u understand, now dun understand ar?" haiz.... den i say orh okok, i know liao~~ okok, den she say "ah ok ar~ go go, i dun wan to be so chang qi wif you ar" well... here we go... i sian for the whole day liao... haiz... den she got say "dun forget ah, later ur lecturer coming ar" the way she put it as if like MEeting the parents session and like i am a bad boy lor! WTH! meet meet lar... geez...

Well, i really scared to talk to Richard later lor. And dunno how will the meeting be like wif my lecturer(Ian Ang) later. i juz hope today pass fast! plz plz plz...

2005-06-09T15:54:00.000+08:00

Second post of the day! wanted to post this, and now is the time. Uninterested people can click the "RED" X on the top corner of your screen haha~

I really love these pictures that we took last saturday... i love it so much that i even had a copy in my wallet! =D

nice mah? not nice u can dont come in here again liao hor~ haha! this entry is specially for her =)
hey Honey, thank you for choosing me... i will shower you with love and care, and giving you what i can provide for you =) well that is.... being a ..full time SLAVE to you lor =P heheee~

i am very proud to say that i love my Darling~ and i really cant go on without her.
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becoz i am a slave, i need my master =P hehe~ MuaCkz!

2005-06-09T13:49:00.000+08:00

I just feel like blogging, still in work now. today Daphne gave me work to do, i did everything finish within half a day, before my lunch -__- now i dunno how... theres things to be done, but it needs time? Like...

I need to call Nick to come here and setup the old database. Boss told me to contact him on tuesday, Nick was away and today he just came back. I contacted Nick, and he say by next week! well it needs to be fast coz boss wants it fast, so once the old database is running, i can get the 2 chinese IT guys down to see how the old database run. Haiz! i haven tell anything to boss yet, coz he is like busy lor. He told me to do some things last time, i done but dare not show him... scared he not happy again lor. how?

Next is the news letter, i e-mailed all the people i was told to e-mail to ask them abt sumthings and so that i could put it in the newsletters. Of all the people i send, only 2 replied back. I have send them reminder which what Daphne told me. I think they busy lar, no time for such things lor, how?

then today i came to work late as usual, 9.30am. Daphne saw me! and she ask me why i sooo late? damn... tmr muz come early liao le lorrr... cannot slack and come late liao. Earlier in the day she was ok de, den juz now she was havin a phone call~ den another phone ring, it rang quite long lar... den she Shouted from her desk : "TC! Can u PICK UP THe PHONE~!? " (/_\)
i got shocked and i am still under the state of shock hahah, so fierce sia... i was waiting for others to pick up mah, lazy to pick it up also...

well, tmr friday le, at last its comin to the end of the week... weekends, can rest abit bah =)

2005-06-08T11:11:00.000+08:00

DARK CRIMSON

??Which colour of Death is yours??
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2005-06-08T10:54:00.000+08:00

Your Hidden Power Is Fire

You have a strong and courageou soul. You show
no fear when it comes to protecting the ones
you love. You know when choosing between right
and wrong. You also are quite the rebel.

Gem Stone:Ruby, Eye
Color:Red,Hair Color:Red with Blonde
streaks that is just below your arm pits pulled
back into a pony tail.

Quote:If you're lost I'll keep you warm
and if your low just hold on..cause I will be
your safety.....don't leave home.....

What Is Your True Hidden Power? .::Beautiful Anime Pics::.
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2005-06-08T10:39:00.000+08:00

Your element is Light: Innocent, beautiful,
kind-hearted and pure. You are so sweet your
almost angelic, you find joy in others
happiness and cannot stand to see anyone in
pain. You want to make everyone around you feel
good about themselves and if someone is upset
you can tend to become rather upset as well
which means you are sympathetic and raise
others above yourself. Being as kind and
good-natured as you are people have most likely
hurt you in the past but you pick yourself up
every time. You may look fragile but you are
stronger than most tend to see. Life is
beautiful no matter how you look at it and you
understand that people make mistakes, not
everyone is perfect. You try to see the good in
the bad which is a talent few posses, dont ever
let anyone change you. You truly have a
beautiful soul inside and a heart of gold.

.:-What is your true element?-:. -With Anime Pictures and detailed answers-
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AS for the Dark Crimson, its not true bah... but its true i live for whatever makes me happy haha! anyway, i love that DArk Art! so nice! =P
NExt is my Element fire, same as dear'e ne. Dont know if its true anot leh haha, but the Element Light is kinda true! like so girlish yar? hahah but! i am not beautiful, i am ugly~ bleahz! =P

2005-06-06T16:09:00.000+08:00

Lemme start with the Members in my Band now.

Shaun

Obrin

Chee Keen

Anny

ok theres no me, coz i am always taking photos of them, not myself... so.... i will use old pictures haha!

Ken

Here are the photos during stage setup...

Rehearsals and Actual performances...

Friends and my Loved ones were present, i hope everyone enjoyed themselves. To me it was alright. But overally it was boring ne... my singing didnt turn out well? umm... i strain too much bah. but YEah! we are working towards the next performance in July! Gambatte ne~!!!

*~Thank You~*

2005-06-01T17:58:00.000+08:00

my boss is a total bastard. He has some fuckin attitude problem, which most boss have. He always make his wife does things, like buying him lunch and serving him, and when he couldnt find things, he will command his wife to look for it. He is really suck a fucking man, no gentleman at all. So what if he is boss? He is a father, he is a family man rite~ he should treat his wife like his wife! not like his workers.

I really wish i could stab a knife into him man, i will kill him! give me a gun and i will shoot bullets into him. Damn feel like slapping him...he really got this bloody pathetic retard face. HE may have looks nerd when he was young, now one proud man who orders everyone around thinking his DICK could stand higher than the others.

i will cut his dick off..

2005-05-30T10:00:00.000+08:00

Over the Weekends, 28th and 29th.

28th May- Saturday
Wanted to sleep longer, but mum wanted me to join them for breakfast. so bo bian... join her for breakfast, but infact got motive one. But everything was ok, only that i lie my way on some things that she asked me haha =X

then later, follow dad for a car ride... starting quite ok lar, den car ride damn lor. Its car ride, den remember wanna go to SOka HQ to get beads, den shop nv open wah~~ den drive back... i sian already. sit till i dun wanna sit le hahaha, but i know dear will be saying this "wa lao~ i wanna sit also dun have lor! " :p hehehe

Den at nite went to serangoon for jammin practice, obrin didnt turn up. so its me, shaun, chee keen and Anny. Tricia came too. It was quite alright, only the soka songs we are not so tight yet ne... had a long day. and i miss my girlfriend...
Talked to her over the phone when i got back, she was juz so cute. kept wanting to talked longer haha. After that i packed my stuff and clothes to wear tmr..

29th May- Sunday

early morning, i reached ICA at 8.30am for the morning gongyo. Chanted... then met shaun at the muslim store across for breakfast. Met chee keen later. The equipments came at 10.30am. we went up to assist how the amps we wanna put and the positioning. Anny came later on and follow by Obrin. The setup of equipments took alot of time... and our sound test too. Obrin's guitar juz cant be heard... yeah we took alot of time... after that, the sound man did our monitor speakers and alot of things. Frankly speaking on stage i cant hear everyone properly, only the drums.

Went thru our own rehearsals and it was damn fun spending my time there wif my group of good crazy buddies haha... After lunch, we rested and then when its 5.30pm, we changed and some did their hair, some make up haha!

And then we went down to the vending machine to sit and ate some food. Dear came! haha i was so happy... i dunno wad happen to me, i wanna spend time wif u but dunno why leh... i brought u up wif ur frds and escort u to be seated. haiz... i wanna talked to you and well u know... spend some time. but also good lar, u all get good seats ya? jus nice haha.

performance was ok, startin i yawned, the front 2 lady singers was ok . not bad. then follow by the solo guitarist wif the boy singing and tricia... haha. eh no comments lar, abit spoiler? my mood sian le... then follow by dance. Dance was okay, something different. But they had a lot of dance wor haha. but its energetic. Then follow by the guest performer!!! i see her sing wif my mouth open, very amazing lor... her voice was wonderful. But she also looks horny ar, when she comes to my side to sing, her leg open abit wah~~~ haha horny lady lolx! but she is old, her makeup is thick and her figure quite well maintain hhaha. That the Keng hua, isit the name? he ar, the lady ask him hold her waist juz hold lor~~ like spoiler also, wasting time!!! its becoz of him i dont get to sing encore! dammit haha.. ai mai ai mai liddat, den like so paiseh haiz... juz hold mah! den the lady wanna shake his hand he also shy! OMG, how old liao~~ hahahah wife seeing its ok de lor, i mean its juz a show. Everyone on stage is ACTING, even for me haha~ its juz stage presentation lor.

Well nvm that, the guests took alot of time but nvm~ they professional! and they are good. But Tricia sort of wanting to take the lime light lor. Juz now that solo singing she also sing. Den the 2 soka songs also she sing!?!?! well that time she say everyone will be on stage to sing lor! pian ren...

now talk abt my performance, that tricia dunno how to introduce us one lor. I was suppose to intro my band mates de, dunno how come she comes in and host... well nvm lar, but her MC-ing was unnatural... haiz, well ok. Performance was quite good, great. I felt relax when playin wif my mates. Anny came up she sang well, and then things went on goodie~ next was the song call Stay Away! i love that song hahah! but starting got mis-cue , obrin and shaun knows. but i dunno leh. when i heard the recording. there was!!! arr i came in late haha. but they were able to cover up for me =P thanks guys! well they are professional also lor haha weheee! then follow by the 2 soka songs, tricia sang lor.

After performance.... i think i typed alot. continue later tonite? or maybe tmr =) pictures coming soon!

2005-05-28T00:38:00.000+08:00

WEEEeeeeEE~~~ Guess what?

Its about love again, today is the 28th May. So its our 1 Month anniversary of our relationship! yes, of coz~ everything is still goin on strong and hyper charge ne!

i really love her so much, so much till i dunno hw much hahaha~ i am really goin nuts now =X

For this one month, we have been through alot... and experience alot ne..
our date,
confessing to you,
celebrating your, birthday,
going out together,
coming to my place,
talking on phones,
went out together,
watched movies,
you grab my hand to tightly haha!!!
and also helped me in times of difficulty and finding ways to please me and cheer me up =)
i really appreciate for all you have done my dear~

~*+Happy One Month Anniversary+*~

those wonderful memories are still kept in me, and i could still see them visually when i close my eyes. I just miss you so much, but yeah~ no prob, i can Tahan! hahah, well erm... trying very hard too bah. All this while, i have no regrets and never question myself... all thats becoz I love you Junting.

2005-05-28T00:33:00.000+08:00

Todays work was ok~ i slacked.

but i did the company logo and the pictures stuff. and i fixed all the broken links and inconsistent pages. When i first saw my boss, he seems friendly. but when i came back from lunch, he looked kinda stressed and strict lor, man... den i also got see some gossiping... and a few colleagues really make me scare.. they tell me wait till when i talk with Richard, he will give me a hard time. haiz... then when he left he came and tell me "oh yar, i will brief u next week ok! next week ah... u know wad to do ? Daphne have told u some of the things ya? okok, nvm i brief u next week ok , byee"
liddat wor... so next week it is hahah. Anyway, i am prepared, juz scared tts all..

2005-05-27T09:35:00.000+08:00

She always know what am i thinking
She always know how i feel
She always know how to buy my heart

And she always know how to make me feel better... i love you dear, miss ya

2005-05-26T22:01:00.000+08:00

Left office at 6.45pm coz Daphne last min ask me to do things. the E-mail i got send to Zakir lor, but e nv receive so i have to send again... den she also teach me how to type out wad i will be doin for the website and how to explain to Richard tmr. Daphne could be a bit strict at times lor... but yeah, she always teach me how to do things, i dun treat her like a supervisor... i muz treat her like my older SIS haha, liddat i wont feel stress le.

hope she guide me bah~ tmr will see Richard, better wear nice nice. check back tmr !

2005-05-26T15:15:00.000+08:00

3rd day of work,

today was quite alright, everything is fine... i dont know am i like acting to be busy infront of this pc or am i really working hard ar? weell the company's website has tons of code for me to understand them. i only got a few things done...

Juz now went for lunch, den found sumwhere to sit~ and relax myself drinking my water and looking at my handphone. i kept looking at the pictures in my phone ne~~ =) love those memories and fun times haha.

now i am in the office, Daphne say later she wanna see wad have i done till now. eh how to tell her ar? well, i only done 2 animations? and eh... one picture to fix the broken link. and... tts all wor! how sia~ 2 days i like done these few things leh. dunno she will be unhappy anot, coz she juz now say she wanna see, tmr Richard is coming back le lor. chant chant chant~~~ =)

k bah, see ya~ update later!

2005-05-25T23:05:00.000+08:00

2nd day of work,

today was pretty well. i Met the Lady boss, Mrs Hoon. she is ok. and i get to sit at my desk. i installed my programmes inside and started working wif the pictures and find faulty of the website. frankly spoeaking the website is really good liao lor, i scare if i change it , it will become worst haha! its professionally done lor their website.

my colleagues got talk to me and try to make me talk~ they joked around and things. They are all friendly =) i felt better working there, Andrew talked to me and the generation difference of last time till now.

And i found out the skeleton of the website, sumthing like how was it done liddat haha~ well, i really need time. Daphne told me to show her wad i have done, and also prepare a list print out in point form to show the boss Richard on Friday. he will be back on friday, so i will have to tell him how i will improve the website and wad i will do lor. I only scare that he tell me to do database i really cannot handle it. I will try.... try to talk to him and make him understand me bah =X

After that i went to meet Dear, or should i say... she accompany me today for dinner and we spend some time together, When i see her, i felt kinda relief from stress and... i really miss her alot... She even bought chocolates for me. But i accidently drop one piece on the floor. Immediately i really feel so bad and low... i am so sorry, i really heart pain lor. I mean, dear is saving money for her hp, and she bought chocos to cheer me up and i drop one piece... haiz.... up till now i feel very sad abt it. Why liddat ne... but i was touched by her actions. She tried to cheer me up and i just say out all my troubles to her. Hope i didnt made u worried so much, once again i thank you dear =) for always supporting me.

I miss you so much, even though i meet u for a while in a day... you still lifted up my mood and i am satisfied le... i am happy.

2005-05-25T00:22:00.000+08:00

today went for my SIp,

Daphne was late and i waited for an hour for her in the meeting room. When she comes in, she told me how disappointed she was abt the sch not informing her any info about me. only telling her one student will be coming tts all. and then she explain to me all the rules and things~ following by wad are the things i muz do.

i am to e-mail to the specific overseas workers about something, and i will have to do the newsletters for it, den i have to know wad to type in the mail lor. Also to edit the company's website den also to do database? She said the boss was looking someone to do database... but i am not confident and i dont specialise in that station lor. haiz... i dont know how, the boss will be back on friday... she told me to tell the boss wad i CAN do. that really gives me a lot of pressure... and also she kept saying "you are an IT student rite? got study before hor~" this even gives me even more stress... i find that i am expected so much, and everything is to me. i Bao Ka liao lor... i tot i would be helping sumbody~ den its ok mah, i can learn. but its all to me, i do de lor... i almost broke down, and i had this terrible headache, the computer i kept staring at it... really made my eyes strained... and the food there is so expensive, and so hard to find a place to eat. Even eating i have to face the wall... its like a prisoner's life, so lifeless...

i really cant cope with it, its my first time working. i dont know... but comes to think of it now, if i were to keep doin newsletters and websites for the 4 months? i think its quite ok lor... but dabatase i dunno, aiya~ but starting they make me stressed up le. its very hard for me to cope and continue... i juz hope they dun push me so deep.

after work i went to bedok for dinner, one auntie share table with me. she ask me if i am a soka member, haha well really~ another one of my Audience who watch me play before..... she said it was last year i played with my dad ne. well i dunno which one le. but she was a nice friendly old lady. Then went for ycf training, i really chanted very very hard... haiz... den training i was tired, but i give my best to teach the newcomers =)

and after all this... the person who i would like to thank is my dear junting... she has been encouraging me and standing by me all these while when i really needed sumone and felt like breaking down. Thank you so much... i know you tried very hard, you did help me emotionally and build me up. but yeah... i know myself.. i juz cant.... haiz.... but no dear, wad u say is not useless k, u were of help de. I am really sorry for giving u so much trouble... but really i thank you honey, i love you...

2005-05-22T03:36:00.000+08:00

21May 2005

today i really had a great time. well, if you tell me to go to the same place again to walk or spend time i would be bored and will feel its a waste of time. But when ever i am with her, no matter how many times i go to that same place all over again, i just feel happy and fine. weird yea? hahaha...

The amityville horror was kinda great, really shocking haha~ and the story was alright, not some stupid ghost show where the storyline is juz so stupid? but this is good i think. my flesh was almost peeled out coz dear was grabbing my arm sooo tightly haha! first time see her so frightened, so cute =)

then after that we went to pasta mania ne! she ordered her fav creamy chicken again aahaha~ and we talked, and play with food, camera. well yeah, we had fun! and i dont know why today was raning the entire day, we could not walk to suntec. so we took a train down~ there we walk around and went to buy veggies haha nah~ juz kiddin~ really lor, thinking back theres not a single moment when i felt bored. Every moment with her is so precious to me...

Then we head to Esplanade, due to the stupid rain~ the outdoor performance was cancelled and delayed to 10pm~ oh man, we couldnt juz sit there and wait~ so we walk around and i showed dear new places to go haha, and yeah alot of er herm... alot of things to see lar. after thatm while i was sendin her home and guess wad! we saw her bro's gf! her name was sherlyn, looks nice and friendly haha ok now almost everyone related to her knows me liao! =X

today, i deeply feel how much i really love you
and i really need you so much in my life
without you... i really dont wanna imagine that
i only look forward of us being together
with a loving heart and loving mind

2005-05-17T18:37:00.000+08:00

Today haiz.... so many things happened ne.

i start with music stuff first... shaun and i worked very hard today. we completed one song which we both worked together to send in to the song writing competition. Next time we have to settle another song le. After that , we both rehearse ourselves on the songs we will be playin for the 19th May concert... and working on Dare to Dream and Grow Now Together, the 2 Gakkai songs.

Next is i think its a totally bad day ne... dear is suppose to meet me today. but becoz of her frd, whu wanted to meet her long ago, so she could make it on wed and so... dear arrange to meet with Zhen today, and tmr will be that frd. but today, her friend inform dear that she couldnt make it, so i know... dear was soo disappointed, which i am too ne. coz dear can meet zhen on wed de, den today could meet me ne. you all catch the balls i am throwing? No? ok nvm~

another thing is... she lost her handphone huz now only, sigh... ok i dun wan to say le, later u read this will be sad too. i was really shocked lor, its so suddenly de... anyway, dont worry bah. hmm... your mum may scold you, but it already happen liao lor, its not your fault too. or maybe... its really time to change phone ne? dont think so much k..

2005-05-17T01:31:00.000+08:00

16th May, back to school...

today i went back to sch, for the SIP briefing... man the first lecturer talking was so boring, well the way he presents is so sleepy. He is not a good speaker lor... and i almost doze off to sleep, it really reminds me of my past lectures ne... always wanting to sleep haha! After him was a indian lecturer, he presents it well. you can feel the force and strength when he speaks ne, and what ever he say kinda makes sense.... hmm, well some things only lar! some also rubbish~ juz wan us to go SIP and spend our 16 weeks there nia... dear say 16 weeks is long lor, yar lor... sigh~

And my LO is mr Ian Ang!!! wee hee~ he is good, and approachble, heng i under him =P coz i ever attended his class before. then later, when to coffee shop to eat with Shaun and discuss abt the 29th May thingy haix!!! talk also kinda blood boil and stressed ne~~~ but, well lets work this out good! and put up a good show bah ^_^ dun stress, dun stress... coz she told me not to ne~~~ so i shall keep myself cool.

while on the way home, i was in the bus. theres this young cute girl keep looking at me wor! den she say...

"Ni shi bu shi SOKA de ren?"
haha so cute! den i say yes ar~ how u know? den she replied she seen me before =P

den during the ride home, she came all the way from the front to me and ask me if i was goin to the Telok Blangah Soka center or the Youth Center, well becoz bus 30 goes there mah~ den i told her i am goin home ne~ haha den she "Chey~" and walks back to her front seat. from here, theres something i have to take note ne... wad ever i do in public, theres sure pppl whu know me de lor, even such a small young girl!!! i have to watch my actions hehe~~ man thats bad ok! its not famous, but theres so much restrictions! i cant litter, i cant scold, i cant ... well alot lar =X

After reading her blog ne... please dont get vexed yah, just try to take in deep breaths and everything will be fine de ne~ anything troubling you and needing someone to turn to, you could come to me. i will feel happy to listen to you de =)
i know dear... i miss you too. Friday will come by eventually pretty fast de, i cant wait too... at times i have this overwhelming feeling inside of me, and i really..really want you so much, to have you every minute of the day ne. but cannot bah, as that time hasnt come for us yet and ya know later ur mum will kill me =X heheee, so dear, dont worry yah! u could give me a ring. Or maybe next time we could meet after your busy schedules in the day if it ends early yah =)
i luv ya baby... miss you!

2005-05-15T22:05:00.000+08:00

Ycf Training at Damai Secondary school...

woke up late!!! and i have to report to damai secondary sch by 8.30am, coz we trainers need to to the markings on the ground for the participants. Dad drive me there, i was right on time haha. And then it started to drizzle... we were all chantin n our hearts, that it doesnt rain. But logically is that yesterday rain so heavily liao, so today wont rrain one de lar! haahah

Training was well, luckily i have angela with me. she really took care of all the formation stuff. hmm... so i have to buckle up on my dance steps le, den i coach dance steps, she do formation lor haha, share share bah. Jiasheng and Diana came today! yay~ very long nv see Diana le, and she catch the new steps very fast. and got 3 more new comers came in today. well looks like this coming tuesday will have to re-teach and revise the old dance steps liao ne.

There were beneficial stories told to us of how we got Damai Secondary sch as our training ground, its really a good benefit. Coz the main motive of this year's YCF is to reach out to the public! and i can see we are really working towards it pretty good! And Damai secondary volunteered 60 of their students to join this ycf, in one of the other items ne! isnt this great? hehee...

Dear came quite early, so sorry ar dear... let you wait for 1 hrs for me =X i will make it up to u de k! hahah... u can be late in meeting me for 1 hrs next time lor, or u wanna arrange it in another way ar... u be late for 5 mins each time u meet me, den u can be late for 6 times haha! =X and some of my frds have met her liao le ne hahaha... after training went to TM with dear =P

Our lovely time after that...

well, most of the time i always blog when it have somethings got to do with my dear. Why? that is soooo becoz she is always in my mind! and to those who are sian and sick of our happenings, u can stop reading here..........

In the bus, my friends took the same bus wif us haha. Man the weather was real hot lor! i feel like lyin down and sleep haha. At TM this junting ar... she went to choose a shirt and say she wanna get for her brother, den i ask to many questions hor, i know she wanna get for me le haha! she ar~~ haiz, spend money on me ne but i was happy lor =P i was sooo gan dong lor, she actually wanna buy a shirt for me coz that day she came to my place and she was so observant that i didnt have much shirts lor. so she bought one for me, aww... this shirt i sure tresure like mad hahah~ thank you so much hmm... *MuaCkZ*

Then dear went to popular to look for her pen! but she couldnt find, dunno wad pen she use de lor~ like got some really Powerful pen that can write very nice de wor hahaha! =P we went into the yamaha music school later, and we played the piano! i try and it was soo soft lor, den dear is the one wif the brains lor... it lies with the paddle below =X and i ask her play she dun wan~~ she is shy lar, haha dear next time muz play for me hor! i dun care hahah~ then we walk around see the guitars and the basses and the drums ne~ man the prices are real high, but nah~ its not my kind of brand bah ne~ oh yar! that reminds me, me and dear was walking past this book shop lar, one table open, den got sell magazines and stuff dunno wad kinda store u call that haha. i saw the F.I.R cover picture on one of the magazine! i was SHOCKED! FIR's guitarist has change guitar to Luna sea's Sugizo guitar wor! the ESP silver mixed media kaoz~ Chinese artists really copy cats huh? hahaha~

oh yar... den eh... after that we went to Toys'r'us eh, did i spell it right? oh nvm haha~ and we went around playin wif toys to keep ourselves updated hahah! and she bought something for zhen ne =P hehee...

while walking, i was also looking for a suitable wrist band, looking for a black one. and i found one that really suits my imagination, its a black wrist band, and on it is swe wif black sequins, its nice ne! coz i was lookin for it, so that i could like suit my dressing for 19th May. and She ar, she wanna get it for me! today like Boyfriend day leh hahah~ but in the end i got it myself ne. coz i dun wan her to spend it la. dear ar, got money spend on urself k! den next time i can spend less haha!!! =X jus kiddin lar, but i know la, u got cheng yi wanna get things for me. you are really so wonderful and good to me.

Later i was soo thirsty, due to the training in the morning, though i drank alot of water... but its not enuff la haha. Treated dear to starbucks, and we play handphone and took pictures! =P and i really see alot of pictures ne. psst.... She was really kawaii when she was small haha! and she really change to much to become a pretty looking one ne! =X shhh...

here are the pictures we took,

our hands together... i like this pic soo much ^_^

dear's samsung

my Sony Erricsson, its so cool! dear's camera has this sketching effect lor~ sooo nice!

took this in the bus where the sun shines haha! Uniquely nice with the effects ne~

thank you so much today
i love it alot
i treasure what ever u give me
and i enjoy myself today...
Dear, i cant wait for our next meeting together
i wish to have u everyday by my side =)

Dear's Birthday! 11th May 2005

2005-05-12T00:47:00.000+08:00

11th May 2005, its Dear's Birthday!!!
Happy Birthday to you ne dear~ =D

Lets see...
in the morning, brought her to my house! and yeah, she ate chocolates, and eat so little wor. hahah tot she will finish the entire box lor =P and guess wad ne! she really explore my PC!!! look here and there, and Search also =X i really scared she will you know~~~ hahaha and i hope she is ok ne~ hahah but i am frank and honest de bah, i dun hide things from you de hehe~ and i played drums for her, haha she is juz so cute when she hit the drums ne, dear said i hit the drums looks cooler ne haha~ i am flying le~ And then later on, i sang her the song i wrote for her... and when i look at her, she was like so emotional ne, kept looking down yeah~ she had tears =) want the lyrics? haha i see how first hahaha. and i am really really glad that song turn out well and it moved her ^_^ V cheers!

and then, we slack on our coach and watch DVDs~~ L'arc~en~ciel and Luna Sea live haha, and yeah tts abt it~ den faster i pack my stuff and brought her to esplanade! yay~~~ oh yar! dear really took lots of pics of my room, my guitars, drums and my display gundam and toys lolx! she said her bros will love to see it really ne hahha. She likes the Final Fantasy jigsaw puzzle too wor =D and she played wif my mic, the mic stand too high for her hehe =X oops~!

then, i brought her to esplanade! there we took pictures again! hehee~ we really took alot of pictures ar! coz of me lor, outside also take, inside also take hehe... den we had dinner at Thai Express! and another happening thing ~ Zell spotted us!!! and we saw him working as a waiter in the restaurant juz beside Thai express! hahah he looks good in that black outfit man, and he has great body =( sobz sobz~~ haha oh well~ then after our dinner, we sat at the esplanade walk way there, and then i say...
"Dear, come on lets dance!"
and she got shocked! she tot its one of my plans again heheh~~ but nah, i know she is scared of me coz of my "Creative" very very "Paiseh" ideas hahah! den i brought her to the bridge near the esplanade there... while walking i forgot abt the drinks!!! i forget to buy drinks lor, coz i brought glasses le, so quickly i went back wif her to the shop and bought drinks =P and she dun know wad am i up too lor, haha after that here comes the fun part!

Under the bridge, i blindfolded her wif one pink bandana. She really hen ting hua lor, hehe~ and things started smoothly~ i brought her to the spot which i planned ne, but!!!! the wind was too strong!!! T_T at this time i start to kan cheong liao... den pack my stuff and brought her to another patch, and the wind is still blowing... i starting to give up liao le, gettin disappointeed lor. then Dear couldnt see a thing, she sort ta guess wad i am doin ne~ she knows i wanna light fire, and she told me not to give up, find another spot =) and she encourage me, den i brought her to another spot, ok theres light wind, den no wind le!!! immediately i started to take out the candles and light it up! i tried to follow and form the words, but it really takes a long time to do it ne.... den boh bian le, i change to form a heart shap bah, den put the present in the centre. i know Dear also quite xin ku lor, blind folded and eh, mosquitoes also ne~~ =X so sorry nee~ and she so cute sia! keep asking me "eh got ppl around anot?" hahah so scared of the public :p hehehe think since that first day she scared le, haha! then, also quite a few times burn dao my Thumb, coz of the lighter lor. but its ok lar~ nothing serious hehee

When i open the blind fold, i think she didnt notice the ground, she look on top and ask where are we? den when she look down, she got shocked haha, but i tot she knows wad i am doin lor... all the while she tot i preparing cake ne! =P hope u like it dear, and den i took out the 2 glasses and pour the drinks and drank~ den sang her bdae song and the Cheese cake i got for her i didnt know its so nice leh!!! arr!!! hahah, great that it has got that cheeezy taste and feel wor, Dear finish most of it hehehe, i told her to eat more lor, coz i know she likes cheeeseee~ cake haha! oh yar!! that stupid candle i put on the cake suppose to relight de lor!!! but once blow liao it goes off and never come back -___- i felt so cheated sia~ hahaa

The present ne~ dear i also hope u like the wallet i got it for you! nvm if u cant use it now, u can use it when u wanna change lor yah! =) and then, we took a train down and we walked home~ and we talked yah haha, had a good time =)

i hope today could create a good memory for you,
as it will be for me...
though it didnt turn out as planned,
but it went quite smoothly in the end...
Happy Birthday to you,
i will always give you and treat you good in what ever i can =)

and here are the pictures~ well, some of them...

my home~~~ one of the best pictures taken!

another one~

Bleahz!!!~~~!!!!~~~!!! hahahaz =P

eh.... this picture is SPECIAL~ coz it has that type of Old fashion type of taking ar, like tourrist also hahah! ya know, the background to big, people small small =X hehehe~

this is the Acrylic shiny Jigsaw puzzle on display at the esplanade currently! its beautiful~

Dear with the jigsaw puzzle White Stairs, nice ne~~~ both also white =P

Blue~~~ the sun is setting, and its totally blue ne!

this is not blue, coz its with the flash haha!

our Singapore!!! luckily she tell me to take it, i didnt know it will turn out so nice!!! look at the clouds, today really had nice clouds lor~

hehehe~ plan this for quite some time ne hahah! turn out quite alright hor ? =x

the Candle of the heart haha~

our glass of erm... i wont tell you haha!!! shhh... i borrow this from my mum, secretly =X

junting, no matter what yah... i will always make you feel special and different from the others!
i love you, and you are special to me =)
so erm... expect more surprises yah? hehehe

2005-05-05T00:52:00.000+08:00

After one week, i finally get to go out with her today... We had movies at PS, hmm... PS is only a good place for movies bah hehee... oh yar! Divergence is kinda nice, but pooor Aaron Kwok always crying de lor, and that Hit man everytime wif that bald lady :p haha Then we had Pasta MAnia at cine leisure, and we sure walk from one place to another ne! oh yar, and there were lots of ppl queuing for the funural of Mr wee kim wee, students and adults went to pay their last respects ne....

Ting, i really had a good time ne. Thank you so much, and hor i didnt expect things from her lor! hahaha, man its so touchy after reading that card =D and also that Cute Akamaru keychain =P thanks ar dear! Things from you are really like so precious to me hahaha... and we talked alot of things, and went round the...aiya... no need to describe de, u guys need to feel it! hahaha say also u all dunno how it feels de lor, rite ting? =p

And while outside with her, i really kena spotted by friends lor!!! one day i saw 5 of my friends!!!
first was Wei yi from my TPSD de, she spotted me!! arrr~~ den later i saw JinQuan and Eeling, but they nv saw me~ den later i saw Jovell and her buddies, but think they dun recognise me? den later Lincoln Spotted me!! with Nara wah seh! Dear ar u really got ren yuan llor haha...

After that during the train, i think i really looked tired sia~ i look at my reflection =X so sorry ne... next time muz wash face le haha, den dear went to meet up wif her friends and i headed for the trainers traiing. and we had new steps liao! omg! i turn here, jump there also giddy ar hahaha~ but kinda fun ne. and guess wad? i expected it, they ask me to play guitar during training to entertain the participants lor lolx! but this time, they sing, i play heheh...

"Creamy chicken" not mine~ its her's hahah

She took a picture of me, so ugly lor~~ haiz! i really feel lucky to have this girl here =D

She is mine!

Mine Mine Mine! =X

while up the escalator, but my camera not so good lor, anyway still hai hao bah ne

Thats Akamaru the white kawaii dog and the Love sweet smelling card, both from her =) thanks ah dear~

wanna know wads written? Bleahz! ;P

last picture of the day is....... Me and Dear, she took de ne... =P Love ya!

2005-05-03T16:42:00.000+08:00

Oh! so sory JJ haha, i didnt tell u ar? hmm... gosh =X sorry sorry sorry ah~~~ eh i send u the record ok? haha online tonite hor!

Ok guys! after feeling kinda stressed for a couple of days, now i feel better~ coz the performance for the Youth Leaders meeting is over ne! actually i was asked to perform 2 songs by melvin yee, man i didnt know he is the vice youth chief wor! haha in the end theres shortage of time, so i was told to perform only one song~ and i took Sakura, the worst song in my list, coz i got prepared lor, i say its the worst becoz i feel scared and uncomforrable bringing out this song hahaa. its go high pitch!!! argh! but hehe... i will tell u the feeling k~

getting there to prepare, i was kinda scared already... now i had perform many times in Soka and also for the police dinner and dance and also to the public... but yesterday one abit different leh? coz its all LEADERS!!!! and alot of young people leh~ if anything goes wrong damnb lau kui one lor haha. and Mr Ong was there! WAH~ :p

my throat again was dry, even though i drank water... juz cant help it lar, feelin kan cheong is liddat de... so the song started where everyone was cheering!! i know hu u are hor! the TPSD girls and the trainers and all those whu knows me! :p thank you all~~ den i do the mic test thingy, which everyone laugh? why ar? hahah den the handphone joke also hehee... den i started wif a constipated voice at start because the mic was too low, den i faster push up and i feel better singing... and lidat lor~ the high pitch i think cant hear bah, but everyone was clappin so i wasnt so nervous le hehehe~ anyway, standing on stage is still the same everything lar. And when i end? everyone cheered and applauded very loud! THANk you all~~ cheers! hehehe =D to those whu cant attend or wanna hear, i got record =)

and after everything end, friends and ppl whom i dun know came to tlak to me =D and also MR ONG!!! he shake my hand~~ yay!!! haha and he told me he like my song and he is working on havin the Jamming Concert towards this end of month! so people out there, mux come ok ! Dear muz too hor! hehe~ yiipppee~~ oh yar~ and one japanese leader came and told me i sang well! infact i myself onlly feel i did quite ok lar, not really that WOnderfully good lar, the best one was the last gohonzon confernment day haha tts the best. but last nite's experience was Brilliant! i feel like being a SOKA idol muahahah~~ okok, i abit BHB lar~ but only for this period only lar, soon after that i ok le =X

here are the shots ne~

my barang barang... eh those shoes are Mok's one eeeewww =P

Our Proud and Shining YMD Brass Band
ps: tts kui bao wif the baritone, isit the baritone? the middle guy.

the YWD whu sang "Pei Wo Kan Re Chu"

"Sakura" ne~

take a bow~~~ hai~

the Dance item, and one of my ycf participants is in there! Beron! and damn he can dance well haha

the audiences, look at the heads! 602 of them man~ @_@

our "Butsudan" shining =) to those new friends, the gohonzon is inside ne~

Thank you all~~ my tpsd YWDs , are you jealous har? =X
ps: To you, dun jealous k~ i take wif u next time den i put up also yah =D

2005-04-30T01:53:00.000+08:00

feeling has been different ne~ theres someone to really care and miss now =)

shaun came over to my place! we worked out 2 songs, we started really well! and he is talented man! hahaa ok yeah, and he showed me the papers! TP lecturer was caught for asking BOY SEX in bangkok! hahha omg!!! he is from Applied Science and our sch is juz beside Applied science hahaha, i dunno Boon Howe got kena touch by him b4 anot.. aiya surely lar hahah! =X

i remember last time when i was abt to enter into poly, dad keep telling me to wear like GUY ! and hair muz be like one NERDY guy! -___- well he was really the Kampung mind that time, and he say TP the lecturers he heard got GAY one lor, and touch molest boys one. and yeah~ today i realise its true!

today went to eatch XXX 2 haha there are some funny jokes ne, but their weapons they use are cool! like 10 generations ahead of us haha. one part is...
stone: "so wad am i suppose to do?
gibbons: "you will work for us"
stone: "well is there a name for me?"
gibbons: "your code name will be xxx"
stone: "WHAT!? sounds like a porno star to me..."

and faster i rushed home after the movie... coz i know someone will be waiting for me de, even if i told her to go sleep hahah =P

every minute of this day
"Missing you" is what i felt
every minute of tomorrow
"Missing you lots" is what i will feel
every minute of the day after tomorrow
"Missing you badly" is what i will surely feel
every minute since yesterday
"Loving you" is what i will always do =)

2005-04-28T23:54:00.000+08:00

ok~ the below entry is definitely not i write de hahaha! -_-

28th April ne...
Played badminton wif my tp mates today, and i was late? :p so sorry ar~ hahah...
Many things happened and i really thought it would not happen today but! in the end... things went well and yeah... she held my hand =)

never knew that there would come this day
of us being together and cherishing each other
i promise to treat you well and bring u happiness
in the days we will have ahead... Love you...

oh yar~ no coverage of wad happen today hor! its a secret~ if u wanna know, please order a Copy of "True Love Confession in SG" @ $9.95 GST hahaha!

2005-04-27T00:10:00.000+08:00

i am a GAY. and i am a happy gay... lolz... =P

2005-04-24T18:04:00.000+08:00

how is everyone? i am kinda fine these days, sumtimes happey~~ sumtimes bored~~ sumtimes scared~~ sumtimes high in lifeforce, sumtimes eh... no...... ALL the time LAzy!!! hahah. hmm... so long nv blog le, kinda lazy actually.... i am wondering where is my blogger friend ar? =X very long nv hear from her le ne~~~ hahax

oh geez... its damn hot these days, i am starting to stay at home in the day haha! cannot tahan lar... today went for morning gongyo at ICA, well... mR Ong was funy, really like his encouragements ne, today he talked about "Happiness" =) ya know, how i wish you could join us ne, maybe one day will do le hahaha, you will sure have laughter wif us. den we went to have breakfast at the Indian Muslim store, i order Roti Tissue~~ hehee sweeet` :p den we met auntie Jenny! he is a very humble lady that we all love to listen and talk to =D she told us lots and lots of things ne.... all the benefits and things happened around.

after that, went to This Fashion to buy mum;s clothes. infact i am alright bah, but she try this try that , den walk walk walk den see another type hahah the nature of women =P so i was BORED! and this happens...

tts how i become when shopping wif mum .... i think that lady at the corner muz be thinking "siao boy..."
btw how do i look? ahahahah

den later we go had lunch~ oh man, so fast eat again ar? dad say its lunch time he wants to eat, but me and mum quite full lor, the prata haven even digest, den juz eat lor... we had bf at 10am!
den i was in the car boh liao... and this happens...

loook into my eyes.... wad do u see? do you know wad am i thinking?? hmmmmmz....... think......... its so damn hot and i feel like sleeping =X

a really Great day! Full schedule day~

2005-04-18T20:47:00.000+08:00

ok! i have got lots to say about yesterday i try to cut short also lar~ haha...

Morning...
went for YCF training, i reach early and was sitting on the bench sleeping zZZzZ~ training was ok i guess, i am sorry that i didnt give my 110%, weiling did most of the talking and showing the participants new steps. my group the YMD side still very few turn up -___- haizz.... den guess wad? during our training, we were gathered to the front and ya know, Nestor Torres came!!!! he came and talked to us, and blow a short piece. i am so touched man, he actually went for the morning Gongyo at HQ in the morning, den he came down to see us from there =D he is really a great man ne :~~~)

we have to write abt our reflections abt each ycf training and i wrote bad stuff abt i got so many things to worry and do... and pass my paper to Meiling my IC.

oh yar, also thx shiya for the present ne! hahah my belated one :p thx thx thx!!!

Afternoon...
after training, hop onto dads car, and rush back to take a bath, and get ready my guitar and play a short while. Pack up and rush back to that same place Tampines Soka Centre (TSC) for the gohonzon confernment day. on the way there, Meiling sms me with encouragements, guess she read my reflections ne, thank you! =) its so nice of her ne~

when i reach there, ppl already start chanting liao, i dunno why but i was scared -___- be coz its really a bog ceremony where the candidates receive their gohonzon and there were so many ppl properly dressed! oh man.. inside this Diamond hall was very nice...

while chanting, i remember i forgot my guitar strap!!! oh shit~ how? den i think.. have to sit bah hahaha, haiz... and i forget to bring my recorder to record lor eh... knn :p coz i was too rushed.

den was the end of ceremony, i was asked to perform, 2 songs - shima uta and Life is like a Boat. i sat and was abit kan cheong, i took a deep breath and talked yeah den start~ Shima uta luckily i got wisdom to cut it short, coz if long i think everyone was sian~ den follow by the second song, full song haha~ while singing i can see ppl's leg tapping and moving :p i guess they enjoy bah~ den after that they applauded loudly =) the sound system was good, i can hear my self and i feel comfortable, sitting is better to perform bah~ i can shake and move to the rhythm ne~

outside the diamond hall where everyone was talking, dad and mum say i perfrom good! mum say this was the best performance ever! and the sound was so nice~ and dunno ar, she say alot of things haha. den theres this old man say i sang well, den one GIRL! she came tok to me hahaha, she said the same things and she is very talkative and friendly ne, she said she ever come across my blog wor~ and remember my name haha. she is Shan lin i remembered.... issit? eh oh i think so hahah...

Evening...
here comes the best part! after that i went to meet up wif junting, brought her for the Night of Jazz concert, also i brought jia sheng wif me. man!!! i sat at the same column as on Friday -___- this time even to the corner, i was really worried junting couldnt see, coz the necks infroont are sooo long~ hahaha i dunno if they are long winded people :X den the concert goes~ it was great! another different feel, and theres encore hahah, he played one japanese song for encore where i hear people from the audience was humming wif it~! so niceeee! =D

tama goh this time really had some problems wif his drums, he played wrong for Watermelon Man, but later is ended alright where they played again. tama was so funny! he knows he played wrongly, den his face like wanna luff dun wan luff liddat hahaha, cute sia! also later part his cymbal stand was loose and haha well~ anything could happen on stage de lor =)

Torres was also havin some prob wif his flute ne~ haha and MR Ong was being pulled up on stage to talk! i dun think he was prepared! and he really say out wad he feels~ and he got so emotionally, and he talk very well lor =)

after that, we went out i tot got sell the CDs , but no! no more cds liao~~ no autograph also! hahaah man i was so lucky on friday! i got the album and the lotus sutra gongyo song cd :p hhhhehehe~ wif autograph also! :p heeee~~~ whu wants ar? i burn for him, $2 per copy~ =X
lai lai lai~~~ limited time only hor, dun miss it ar, from USA de leh~ heheeee

this morning i transfer wad i recorded last nite, man i can really hear wad i was talking to jia sheng and junting lor. we whisper also can hear hahah! didnt know my mic is sooo sensitive :p hehehe~ and that one part where we have to La La La~ LALa~ LALALA~ La La~ i heard myself singing!!!! omg!! its soo ugly!!!! arrrghhh~~ so off tune hahaha *faintz* so embarrassing...
whu wan the sunday live version i also can burn for u~ but got my singing ar, and talking, sorry... i burn for u for $10 per copy, coz i dun expect u to hear my "la la la" so its better u dun buy hahaha! =D

this is the stage when no ones around~ its on Friday after the show. Cheeze guys! thats Tama sitting on the right!

thats where i am sitting! right at the corner -___- its really really packed!

like brothers coz our specs look the same~ also like retards! Bleahzzz!!! =P hahaha!

nice mah? hahaha, man we took 3 shots, think this was the better one lor~ hahaha

this is Nestor Torres on friday~ while he was having autograph session

that guy in black is me~ thats my CD! hahah thank you !!!!

2005-04-16T17:06:00.000+08:00

14th April 2005

let me tell u abt last thursday performance at Asian Civilisation Museum, it was a SUCCESS!!!! a 200% success , why? haha let me tell u... early morning we went there, man the equipment are terrible, the drum really looks bad? 2 Toms are missing, and i only got one bass drum and one snare and small tom available. liddat how to play? hahaha and its so dusty and rusty, the cymbals are eh... alright haha. even though 2 toms are missing, i try to keep my beat slow and simple ne~ still sounds good bah =) after our first rehersal, the organiser lady came and ask Anny - "hey my boss like ur singing, can u sing another one later???" den we are all stunned, how to perform another one? we may have to turn it down lor... den i say, well juz faster work one on it bah, lets take this chance tts given to us. den Anny crack her head to remember the lyrics for the new song, oh man! we are all so stressed and i am scared lor... but heng i am as drummer, is guitarist i sure stress. coz drums juz have to worry the starting and ending bah hahah!

we rehearse the new song , once, and didnt even compleete rehearse it lor, coz the VIP come liao, we have to stop. so infact in juz 30 mins of discussions and rehearsing we had that song ready. Shaun and obrin and me try to play save, not to play to complicated, juz simple stuff. and guess wad? the second song was a success too!!!! tts y its 200% success!!!! =) thx to shaun and obrin, we are able to work that song out fast. with or without me makes no difference de, coz i slow hahaha... we had fun yeah! and it was good for our first time playing together, and also facing the challenge together! Anny lets work together again bah! =D i really love her second song, though i seldom listen to mandarin songs, but hers was soo sweet and nice! for this song, she really sang her heart out, can hear her talent ne~

15th April 2005

was studying with shaun at Tampines Macdonald juz opp TP, well also nv really study lar... no mood and tired -___- after eating feel like sleeping haha!!! i got one extra ticket for the jazz play, later de... so the ticket very valuable, i dunno whu to give it too... shiya coming, and one more extra. and shaun i invited him to watch on sunday, as for Obrin he haven confirm wif me. so luckily i got the wisdom , i ask shaun to watch todays one haha, and as for sunday later den say. we went in, wow... the atmosphere is good, u can see the stage is damn grand! i wanna play~ hahaha, well... we are not allow to take pics and record, but guess wad??? during performances hor, i see shiya takin her mp3 player to record lar~ den shaun on my other side takin out his hp to record hahaha! =D well, i didnt bring any stuff, so sunday i will being my recorder =X shhh~~~

the performance was very very great... i almost had tears in the middle of the performance, while the guest performaer Nestor Torres was playing "The sutra of the Lotus of the Wonderful Law" i almost cried =) i can feel that piece was really belong to us, we have a piece of music for oourselves .... i am really really so touched ne~ i guess everyone in the hall was so amaze ne haha..

and the performance was successful and fun. Very eye opening, now everyone is looking for tickets for sure. hahaha, that time like ppl dunno like how de, now ppl are asking desperate around ne =P tickets are free, priceless.. so once no more, very hard to get le~ after that, i called obrin, he couldnt make it ne... so well nvm, so i was hoping that junting could come and watch this, i really dun wan her to miss this, really really. since obrin couldnt make it, so i tot if she is scared of coming out wif me, she could bring her frd lor. and most amazing thing is , SHe agreed!!!! =D i am soooo happy! after really trying so hard she agreed ne, yay!!! Junting you wont regret de yeah~ if not nice hor, u can beat and scold me =X den come back home, mum ask me for one tix, coz my aunty wanna bring her Italian councillor so see. den i gave her, so no more tix le. so sorry ar shiya jj~ =X

oh yar almost forgot, Nestor Torres is performaing with the best few musicians around this island. Really man... i like Mario the Keyboardist, coz he is old and COOL! very humble looking, coz hor.... after that me and shaun went to the stage nearer to see see, den Mario came up and was sitting wif his keyboards, he looked at us and smile =D den i smile back and wave~~~ hahah!

i cant wait tomorrow ! ya ya ya ! tmr will be a busy day...
1) YCF traning in the morning
2) to perform for Gohonzon conferment dayint he afternoon
3) go catch the JAzz performance! ^_^

2nd day of practice~

2005-04-12T23:29:00.000+08:00

thx Anny for her snacks haha~ nice =P how nice of her ne~

today's rehersal, we made some changes and add-in. Its kinda finalise now ne~ ^_^ i am so happy~~~~ yeah!

Finally can see her smile and laugh more bah~ coz i think she wasnt used to us i think hahah, but we are ourselves~ we tok stupid and well yeah~ hope she enjoy herself ne! =) i have to thank Chuiling too, coz its her that link me to Anny. Well infact Anny, has got other bands to choose from ne~ like Kennth's band. but she chose me wor~ haha i dunno why ne, but i chanted hard to gohonzon, i think its been answered ne. Also glad we have this Gold chance to perform in such a GRAND huge event!

Dear friends, i dunno if u all can come anot leh. coz There will be Panelists, and VIps, the vice- chair man of North east CDC and MP for Pasir Ris GRC will come ne~ guest of honors. den got Media conference and Reception. WOW , its like so high class hahaha... better perform well man! Chant Chant Chant! Nam-myo-ho-renge-kyo~ =D

i would hope u all to be there... but i think there will surely be security bah. If can, i will sure to let u peeps know yeah! =) i cant WAIT hahaha~

Anny~

2005-04-11T23:16:00.000+08:00

North East CDC is organising one event that is the Song composition for the YOUTH, and this coming thursday will be the launching and opening ceremony like that. so the organiser Approach SOKA ask if they had anyone wanna perform and take part in this event? so SOKA went to approach Anny, requesting her to sing her song which was used in the Youth Peace Carnival last 5 years hahha... call DREAM OF PEACE.

Anny was looking for a band urgently ne~ and she told her frd. So happen her that frd knows me , she link me to anny. yeah, on sunday she told me about the details, and yeah~ i told Obrin and Shaun, hoping they could help, as this is one good experience yah! hahah~ they both agree~

so today we all met at my place, and 12.30 we start to ask anny to show us how the song like, den how it goes, arrangement and planning den rehearsing the song~ within 2 hrs we grab whole of the song, kept playin yeah~ i think we can handle this song =) i am proud of obrin and shaun ne~ thx to Anny to, her song is nice and wonderful ne~ mum heard and she likes her song hahah.

tmr we will be rehearsing again ! to tightten up everything and fill in more stuffs...

This coming thursday will be at Asian Civilisation Meuseum, its one high class place and it will be at the second level. Near the Stamford Raffles statue ar tts wad i was told hahah... anyway there will be MEdia Coverage, and VIPS and people~ yah... and of coz, Soka friends bah =) to those whu can make it down, if u dunno, can ask me k! i will post more info soon~

anyway, i am not the one whu sing, Anny is the one whu compose that song so she has to sing ne~ i will be on the drums bah =) i am so excited, my first time performing wif Sticks hahah =X

and also... i am happy today =) hope can sleep well tonite, coz i have been thinkking alot and yah, there are things i haven give an answer yet and also my supp paper! hahaha

2005-03-28T02:50:00.000+08:00

so sianz... so decided to crap.
yeap. examz are over.
now slacking at home... nothing to do... so anyone wanna ask me out? =P
freedom now.. but lets see the results after two weeks. hah.

2005-03-22T19:26:00.000+08:00

i have to blog this! Shan jiee!!! i receive your e-card haha i juz opened it neh!!! u send it on the 20th =P gosh, thank you soo much ne~~ ^_^ it was a really nice card wif one cute music haha.

todays paper was a dead one... i went to study wif my friends yesterday and i know wad to study and study there. then when i came home had dinner... den i vomitted around 5 times coz of the food dad bought back. Mum didnt like the fried rice, so she didnt touch it, where me and dad ate it, and i ate quite alot... half an hour later i felt giddy , and felt like vomitting... yeah thats it! den mum and dad told me to go sleep so i didnt study, only this moring touch abit haiz... San shi shi ma lor... why lidat sia.

dad told me he also felt unwell last night, had giddyness... but my stomach is weak de, so my stomach couldnt take it =(

Well today went to sch and friends wished me Happy Birthday! haha thanks again Jinrong! Jasmine and Hairun =) good luck to u all for the next ffew papers! =) lets rock!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!

2005-03-21T01:45:00.000+08:00

wah long time no blog, juz no time leh... and also lazy haha!!! but this entry is a must ok!!!

coz its my birthday! well, it was just 1 hr 45 mins ago haha!

i love to thank all my wonderful fwends whu wished me and remember in one way or another, i love you guys! ^_^ i wwas really happy last nite neh when it stike 12 midnight.

first was Kaiting, followed by Shiya JJ, Jeselle, Junting, Yiting, Suilan, Raudhah, Chuiling, Shu Shan, Wei Zhen, Stella, Min Xiu and of coz Jinrong! you wished me so advanced haha! so lets see... 14 girls! wow, when it strike midnight i immediately got 5 girls come wish me leeee so happieee~~~ Xing fu ne muahah! =X

the guys side , well if got alot of guys wish me than girls hor sumthing wrong le neee =P, theres Bao Jie, Vencent, Anthony, Jay, Adrian and Farhan! =D there 6 ta bohs hahha~ dunno why this year my bdae so special neh, i go count the number of people haha!

Last night was so wonderful yeah~ as some friends whom i didnt expect they would remember and come wish me =D so touched! how i wish i could reemmber all ur bdaes sia~ but my brain ar haiz... limited storage =P heheee. JJ was so cute and funny, made my night cheerful as she keep showing me those ke ai funny stuffs! u ar~ hahaha

alright! gtg now~ be back to blog afte4r exams! Good luck to all the peeps having their papers =)

2005-03-14T21:30:00.000+08:00

HEY YOH! long time no blog~ today i am gonna recap wad happened last week as last wek was a week full of events yah! here goes~ hahah RECALL RECALL RECALLL~~~~~ -___-

Monday:
reached school early around 8am plus and met junting. she said she wanted to pass me something, and i was surprise! my birthday present!!! the first person =) i was soo happy ne~~ then she asked me to open on the spot, so i opened -___- i spend 15 mins opening the wrapper and i still haven see the present yet GrRrrr~~~~ and after a tough battle of tearing the wrappers i finally see it! when i open the box wow! ^_^ i really love it alot ne THank You Junting! *MuaCkZ* =X after meeting i cheong back to the lab to do my STMD w3hich is gonna due on wednesday... den around 6am plus went to the above lab to met brian, as his friend helping him to do ECAD project, i also haven do mine so i hope he could help me too... ECAD also due on wednesday! then his friend said he cant correct the error, tmr will pass to us. So i went back to STMD lab to grab my friends codes so that i could refer and copy?... stayed up till 9pm. went home and sleep like a log...

Tuesday:
Went back to STMD lab again in the morning, rush thru my stuff, corrected my friend's code and trying to change the design elements and colours, so that teacher wont know its a copied work... but my friends codes could only Log in and Upload Movies, cannot delete nor can it edit. Did finish most of my stuff for STMD, and gerard ask me for my codes, so i left my work there for him to reference, den went up to ECAD lab to meet brian and i cant find him!!! i was so fucking anxious where the hell is he man? all my friends in the lab already rushing their ECAD project... luckily i met a friend who knows them, he said they all went to the court and play soccer!!! KNN!!!! i was damn angry... he agreed to let me know when the errors are corrected and agreen to pass it to me... no wonder juz now tried to call them both i couldnt get them. so i went all the way down to the court and i manage to find them. brian pass me the codes. i quickly went up to the lab the to look at the codes and try to edit the codes and design elements of the application. but there are errors! den the friend in the lab helped me... he spend an hour to correct the errors den he said "Cant be lar! how come he do got so much problems, muz be brian copy the wrong thing lar..." den he tried to call them, and brian and his frd came up. they checked and yes! brian copied the wrong folder ~ wa lao waste my time den when they are done, they pass me the correct copy by then 9pm liao~ lab close... and tmr is the submission at 9am for ECAD! went home like a dead zombie...

Wednesday:
Early in the morning at 8.30am i rush to the ECAD lab and edit all the goddamn codes to my name, coz everyone had brians name. Edited and try to add words and add in designs and stuff to make it look nicer and so that it doesnt look the same as brian's. Then when i save, i accident overwrite the STMD work!!! FUCK!!!! i gan cheong like mad, den i think think... oh yah!~! gerard! i called him and ask him if he did save my work? and he did~ heng.. phew.. i really love u man gerard! my saviour ^_^ Then aga aga time up 9am... just hand in my ECAD... after handing in to the lecturer i rush the lab and find gerard. we are using other labs, so i cant add in new stuffs or wadeevere things to my STMD work, coz the STMD lab already start the presentation liao. mine is 2pm. so i stayed in the lab and did the 10pages report for stmd! i rush rush~ also i reference from JS's report. then print, and went to applied-science sch to bind the report. WAH! alot of pretty cute girls in applied science... wear very nice de... =P~~ after a few days of stressed and lack of sleep, i think i really look lifeless and sian.. hair damn messy, no shave nothing... den 2pm i went in for my STMD presentation, i was scared! coz most of my frds work same as mine! can only log in and upload movies, others cannot... den my teacher come and grade me.... tick tock tick tock... alot of things ar, i cut it short. very afast all done~ i think i should be able to pass bahj haha... there the end of all projects, now wad i am scared is Tmr ECAD project evaluation! where teacher is gonna return us our work and we have to present to him and show him how it works... went home around 6 plus had a good sleep actually...
(of these 3 days, i skipped my tutorials and lab and lectures...)

thursday:
the big day came, ECAD~! came to sch early before the evaluation and i add in lots of things and edit alot of the design format for this ecad project. quite abit different from brian's copy. We were all in the lab yah... den it was so cold! i was soo scared scared... i started chanting and chanting, i haven chant this hard in my heart for so long... i was totally haiz... when teacher came to the lab, i wanna tell him to let me be first!!! so i can leave early~~~~!!! please... i told gohonzon i wanna be first.. den teacher came into the lab wif a Dao face (die liao le lar)... den he pointed a few ppl to start first.. not me, so i waited. i saw him shoot queations on the students and test their knowledge to see his they really did their project themselves ... Cham liao... den one student he said "this is the 3rd time i gave me the wrong answer" so wad ever he ask those common questions i noted down and i know how to answer liao... if he ask abt coding hor, i die. then he got one time ask whu wanna be next, i waited for awhile, no answer den i volunteered! den i MISSION IMPOSSIBLE~! i took the 2 diskettes from the desk which i handed in yesterday, den i quickly go to my assigned computer. i faster delete the contents in it, den transfer the current updated version of my project to the diskette. Diskette capacity is low, so i only transfer half of my work into it, den i transfer another half into another diskette. the PC was damn slow, so it took really some timeto copy into the diskettes!!!! faster!!!! later he come see wad i am doing , i am done ! so happen he was marking one student, and they chatted damn long coz that girl laugh alot and they both talked very long! macham like chit chat session! heng heng i got time to transfer finish, den when i run my programme, got ERROR!!!! how come!! den i delete and edit alot of shit lar... i also blur, den heng mine working! den he finish marking den he came to mark the student beside me. den later my frds some got lesson at 5pm! and its 5mins more to 5pm liao, den he ask me if i can wait mah? (wa lau!! from first one i wanna be now i have to wait for so long...) den i agreed ok ! den he mark the other students first, den Brian was assign to the computer beside me!!! WTF!!!! our work are quite the same lor DAMMIT!@!!!! den i close my eyes dunno wad to do sia~ den he mark brian den he ask some question why log in page no menu on top??? den mine also no menu on top de lorr!!!! den aftr brian, he come mark me -__- i try to act cool, tell him one part not working properly, den show him this that this that... he ask me one common question and i know how to answer, and THATS IT! done so fast!! wah~~ last person really fast coz our evaluation time ends at 5pm, and he inteviewed me at 5.15 and he has to be fast lor haha! not bad sia~~ though i am not the first, but i am the last one and everything went smoothly! chanting really helps neh~~~ after that i see a big huge smile on my face =D

friday:
i had my CMSK (communication skills) job interview. Same think i was the last second person coz i am WOng , den teacher exceed the time, so she had to rush. and guess wad! my interview went thru successfully sia! i tot she will ask me abt my company wad lar, how will i work lar stuffs like that... when i enter the room i didnt know if the interview start anot leh, coz we were liek chatting and liao tian ! hahaha~ its so ease~ den she me abt bad customers lar, den later she talked to me abt how i cam help wif the company wif my Diploma in IT den, she ask me frankly what i wanna see myself doin? wad i like to do, den i say i like music~ she ask me if i sing, i say yes den we talk abt singapore idol and many things haha!!! den she say ok Ken, i like ur nice persona~ and ur fluent.... there! it just ends like that hahaha! and i got Language- 8/10, Grooming- 8/10, Company knowledge- 7.5/10... its one of the highest!! hahah weehee~~ i didnt expect my grooming to get so high sia~ i tot my hair really messy haha =X
Then after that i went for friday dinner wif TPSD and i have to leave early de coz i got jaming, i went to the toilet actually, when i came out den i saw Pei Ru wif the cake .... den she ask me for lighter to light the cake, haha i tot the cake was for me sia~ nah! its for Chuiling, i know her bdae comin but dunno which day, as for mine, i am still 10 days away lar~ so long way. den borrow from obrin lor, den was delayed abit. Obrin told me to eat the cake first den only we go for jamming lorr.... den when the cake wass brought out Peh Ru said "today we are goin to celebrtate Chuiling's bdae .... and also DingQuan's bdae!!!" Ahhh!!! i was shocked! hahah wad siaaa~~ bu hui bah lolx! awww~~ den we sang bdae song and they offer the cake to obrin and shaun my band mates, den after that we left for jamming! jamming alot of things ar i dun wanna say, i type juz too much or today hahah!!! i am quite glad ne... =) thank you TPSD! love you all...

next entry i will talk abt sunday's YCF training! see ya!

This is Pants! kawaii ne~~~ a present from JJ for my last bdae ne~~ always when i am troubled, JJ will always tell me, Pants is always with you ^_^ and beside him is the Black Guitar from Junting, nice ne~~~ thank you so much! =)

2005-03-05T23:59:00.000+08:00

Yesterday straight after school went back home to get ready myself for the Police Logistics Dinner and Dance. While rehersing and practicing at home... oh well received a call and eh.. my heart sank i should say cant concentrate hard at all den i juz packed up my stuff dress up and head there straight wif mum and dad.

While i was there are the Hotel Ball Room, the stage wasnt that big, there were lots of tables and there werent any Mic Stands which me and my dad needs it. I know when i was there my Face damn Dao! haha i dunno why no mic stands! i cant set myself at ease. i need to see my equipments and have my sound test den i will get relax. Waited for sometime the Mic stands came and had our sound test. and i dun really like the PA system. but it should be alright. Both my Voice and Guitar can be heard from my side.

Dinner was bad, the food sucked, can see they put tons of Starch to make it sticky. Totally cheapo stuff... then later my turn to go up stage, dad perform first, follow by me. Dad was ok lar, can see he doesnt have much air to blog at sum parts. The sound was very sharp, but he had many people clapping and cheering for him. Next was me, i cant hear my guitar at all -__- only a lil bass sound, i cant hear from my side, but seems like the tables infront can hear bah, so i juz continued... had applause too. i Came down and the Comissioner of PLD called me and said Good Good =D i was so glad..

After that i kept looking at my watch ne~ supose to meet my friend but i think the dinner was gonna end late ne... den later got some Chua Chu Beng (PCK lookalike) yeah he call himself CCB, haha i laugh a lot when this guy appears, he totally look like PCK and his voice and ctions too! and he told damn many dirty jokes... thats so entertaining =D only this item is good, the rest of the items sucked and bored me. So was the Food.

There were people whu couldnt believe i was my Dad's son, they thought i was from the Entertaining side which they hired for that event haha i dunno why they think that... my performance wasnt so good as last time ne. Maybe becoz of the way i dress? hmm... Then theres this man whu knows my dad came to our table to shake hands, den his wife came and Thanked us for our performance she said she liked our performance, yeah that lady was from the Front VIP tables, while performing i saw her paying attention to our performance. =)

I love the Pin on my collar =)

Went hm and was so tired.. i slept till 12pm this morning ne... Dad heard the recording of last nites performance, i dun even bother listening to it.... hmm juz now juz try to listen a lil bit, and i cant hear myself! heard a lil bit of my vocals, but not my guitars.... haiz... i think this is failure. FAILURE! the sound man sucked... oh well, so much for last nite's event.

2005-02-28T00:46:00.000+08:00

some people say i didnt blog for him.. so here i am.

*blogging*

anyway, he wont be going for lect one.. lazy.. =X

*the end*

dont kill me becos of this entry k.. =P

2005-02-26T00:28:00.000+08:00

Hey everyone its me! think my blogger friend too busy to help me blog, so here i am! and since i got the freee time =D

Today i handed in 2 projects already. And ITEN was so damn rush! my grp members are always last minute and Hadi didnt come... that ass didnt come and he juz e-mail us his work and expect us to compile and edit for him! and the rest... haiz ... today was juz running around in school looking for labs and stuffs. Haven slept well for this whole week, only 2-3 hrs each day... stay in school still 9pm den go home rest den rush for project den sleep den rush den sleep den go sch do project and attend lesson... den stay till 9pm , its like a routine. i will collapse from this man haiz..

Today i declare a rest day for myself... and havent had time to play my guitar! oh yar! i've got a new guitar ne! heheh so happy... i bought it on monday, mum and dad still dunno abt it. i hide it in my cupboard =X juz dun wan to let them know la, who knows they nag or scold leh hor? this guitar has a story~~ one day Ken went to this shop to look for one Les Paul model. He was thinking of the Shop's house brand Les Paul, he tried the guitar, but there wasnt any good feeling about it and moreover the workmanship was pretty bad. Then he noticed another Les Paul juz beside it and took to try, it was cheaper than the other one becoz it has a Dent on the headstock. It is first hand, but the head was dented becoz of the shipping. He tried the guitar and it has powerful sounds and the feel was great~ despite the dent at the head, he doesnt mind abt it, so he got it home! and it happen to be Below his budget!!! =D

Epiphone Les Paul model, well i never thought i would get this brand as its quite common? but well, the feel of it was very good and i totally cant resist it, and price was good too! Hmm... i will make it unique and look a lil different from the other Epiphone Les Pauls ne!

Yeps! after thinking , i will call her Denise as the front letters Den mean Dent at the headstock. so i shall name her Denise. And Tonight i played and jam my room haha of coz not so loud lar =P

"Playing Denise in da Night!" eh i got a friend call Denise leh... shhh dun tell her k! later she say i touch her everywhere hahaha!

haha! creating my new poster =X

2005-02-20T20:35:00.000+08:00

today i went out the whole day. first was to go visiting and get ang baos. rich rich liao... =x after that, i went for my YCF trainers meeting to learn new dance Steps. youth cultural festival is in July. come and support ya?

and naruto has license le. so cannot download. haizz... so boring. why it gets so popular huh... anyway, the story is going to end. see how lor..

2005-02-16T21:03:00.000+08:00

hmm... i have been blogging regularly huh.. see.. i so guai... =P haha.. well, just came across this poem and it is so nice.. full of expressions. so sad.. here it is..

I walked along this beaten path

With my head hung in sorrow

I couldn’t even start my day

So how can I begin tomorrow?

Today was like any other

All the pain kept inside

My time was running out

And no longer could I hide

My heart was breaking inside

It hurt so very bad

But all at once I realized

I really don’t feel so bad

Something happened to me

I never felt so clever

I realized you’d never truly be gone

Cause your memories will last forever

But I still think about you

With every single stride

You meant everything to me

And helped my pain subside

So i'll walk this beaten path again

With my head held high

I'll think good thoughts of all we had

And never say good-bye

i need to plan now! yeah right -___-

2005-02-15T22:03:00.000+08:00

by looking at the previous post, i felt that was so cute yah haha, thank you for helping me to blog my lil blogger friend lolx! i think u all know whu she is le bah haha... u sounded so cute man =D

ok, surprisingly i am blogging now. why? coz i got no one to tok to now, and neither do i wanna go into msn. juz sick of it. All my feelings are all harboured inside me now! its GONNA EXPLODE!!!!! arrghhh...
today i juz handed in my proposal, slept less last night. So i was relaxing juz now playing game X_X and guess wad, that old geezer came in and start to nag at me. You might say its nag, but if u were me this is one of the million times u would have heard it. This time is no ordinary nag, its a 30mins nag? well... i think its longer than that -__- and it really irritates me. i wanted to have my word BUT! i ren~ ren~ ren~ coz i know this ond hag, anything i say he sure argue back for at least 30mins each! by that time i think i will have to pack my bag and go void deck sleep liao =X

hmm... he said alot of things, that i ALWAYS PLAY GAME! well which young ass wont play game rite??? computer is for gaming one mah, moreover i need ta relax man, this morning was stressful. den say i changed since sec4, not hardworking already... everyday only go sch come home sleep, den dinner play game den sleep. BUT! that is life wad yah? dun sleep den ask me to meditate ar? wad can i do if i dun play? i am still young lorr... chen nian ching de shi hou play alll the way mah. Summore say i will be wasting my 3 years... and my owntime! he rather i go army now than spending his money, around 11k per year ar? i forget the figures.

eh i sound like damn relax sia... no anger one even though it just happened 10mins ago hahah...
OK OK! i really just wanna say this out man! whu wasted my damn time? the 3 years in poly? i hated IT but he damn bloody insist me to get into this fucking course, izzit my fault? that fucker was the one whu psycho me and criticise about other course i wanna take. I really find i am such a looser, cant even have my own choice. Everyday i come to sch, look at the projects and my results i felt so regret! why did i come to IT knowing i dun like it...you know that ?!? and now this bastard is blaming me for everything, and talk as if he did so much for me.

He says that now i am in the YCF i will not cope wif my studies , definitely. Cos i cant handle so many things alone and my grades are poor and i am stupid. "What are you good for?" Summore he says no JAMMING! and no more buying of any instruments else He will smash everything. But... i hao bu rong yi got 500 bucks now! and i am planning on a new guitar... damn i dunno if mum went to tell him -__-^ "Music is juz a hobby, an interest, you wont go anywhere! people can get degree, you? get one Dip already so hard. i wont pay anymore money for u to retain i tell you! u fail i dunno where to put my face man! ....." OH yar, u knw wad? Last time he kept nagging at my mum "One drum set $550 and u can buy for him, u really like to spend so much money like that u know." and now wad... When ever there are people in my house, he will bring them to my room and SHOW OFF "my son got one drum set u know~ it is his hobby ar haha yaya, he also perform in blah blah blah" u see? this type of person also got...

I will make music my kind of living, and when i hit it big... Mum's share will be more than his. i will just repay him the same amount he used on me. And Gohonzon will not help me, "you dun everything all rely on Gohonzon k! he will not help you, he is not a god. if u do u are STUPID! " man, even religious things he also bring inside -__- as if i everything all rely on my religion like that... wtf, i can get so feddup and i will stop going for morning gongyos and meetings wif him. He can go himself together wif mum if he wants..

now i've got reason to give him, to reject performing with him on stage. to reject playing together wif him in his pathetic harmonica performance. You know what? When there is performance, he always wants me to play and sing the song SAKURA, and i hate that fucking song now. All the while i hate that song, ever since he kept forcing me to play that. And also to backup with him in his harmonica performance, and i hate playing with him lor. He's got no sense of timing, and i am just a stupid asshole standing with him on stage playing simple stuffs. Well this year's Police Logistics Dinner, i QUIT! Dont like mw to play music? FIne~ you can go fuck urself wif your harmonica. He is such a contradicting bastard.

Now wad... i am going to get a guitar soon... whoose house should i put it in? Your house? anyone lives near me? hmm... so far only Vencent's house at Katong. and theres a Band Competition in this end Feb at Orchard now sia... i dun care, juz work towards my dreams! i think that old man muz have quarrel wif mum tts y he use me to vent his bloody anger... coz i heard a BANG on the door in the next room. Ar... His mouth really just STInks, mum also get feddup of him most of the time. He and his stinking mouth.

2005-02-14T23:03:00.000+08:00

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2005-02-14T22:24:00.000+08:00

TC is lazy to blog. so, he asked me to blog for him... -_-" he is finding lots of excuses not to blog, say he is busy and everything. haha... he is doing well, he just went to malaysia and had collected lots of angbaos. so, he is currently RICH. =x

he wanted me to blog this for him:
today jun ting sneaked into my lecture and i am so happy to see her. at first she ignored me cos she tried to act blur. haha.. but too bad, i did not get the chance to talk to her as she was sitting so far away! hmph... and after the lecture she went off to meet her friend and did not even say byebye to me.. haiz~ lolz..

i will blog when i have the time.. everyone dont miss me! =P btw, i have appointed a person to help me blog when i disappear. haha...

anyway.... wishes everyone a happy vday! =)

2005-01-30T13:10:00.000+08:00

Hello everyone !!! sumone has been asking me to update this blog~ u know whu u are, so here it is!

eh, kinda tired and lazy ar~ so will continue when i am free yah! =X hegegee~
see ya again bloggie! =P